06 November 2006 - long time no talk ***foul language warning*** ...

ok, what the fuck is wrong with me?
it is like i want to exercise, i want to work out ??? how the hell can a 373 pound woman want to work out on the treadmill – a lot?? i dunno, but i do. i went Sunday, i went today and my work out clothes (yes, i only have 1 set and those are too big thank you very much) are in the dryer (just beeped).
in the past 3 weeks i have gone from barely 8 minutes on the treadmill (about 2.0 - 2.5 mph) to today’s all time high of 30:23 about 2.6 mph, but a lot of it at an asskicking incline – sometimes i was at a 9.0 incline. wtf ?????!!
i have my first real appointment with my personal trainer on Wednesday, so if i do work out tomorrow, that means ****gasp**** working out 4 days in a row.
(giving you extra time to pick your jaw off the floor)
i am still having food issues, granted i am not eating nearly as much, but just now i had about 10-15 (no, i didn’t count them) scoops tortilla chips and damn they were good. i also had salsa so woo hoo … got in some vegetables!! no, i ate corn with dinner as well.
and yes, i know i haven’t written in like forever, but shit happens and i just haven’t done it. no real excuse of course.
my weight is pretty much at a stand still (see food issues above), but i go for my first fill next Monday. i hope it will give me some sort of restriction – yes, i have some now, but i want more dammit!
i cant believe it has almost been a month, i will post pictures on or around the 9th.
losing jusme