31 December 2006 - 1156pm - Happy New year

Happy new year!! 8 minutes away. i havent posted in a L O N G time - sorry... i am down 61 1/2 pounds. will be up some after tonight though : /will write more later - promise

26 November 2006 - the end of my first Holiday weekend

i worked out quite a bit during my 'vacation' from work. in fact i worked out twice Monday and Tuesday once Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and today. yup, the only day i missed was Thanksgiving and the gym was closed.
i weighed myself on Friday and i was in the 350s ... talk about a jaw dropper!!! it was just so surreal. the bottom part of the scale goes in 20 lb increments ... i used to be in the 360s and i slid it over there and it was like, nope - - lower !!! so i slipped it to 340 and then the top alllllll the way over to the end ... and i ATE on Thanksgiving ... i ate and ate and ate ... ok ... not as much as i would have pre-band, but i ate more than i really should have. but you know, i worked my ass off at the gym and do not feel too bad about it.. now if i would have gained that would have been a different story..
i am at 19.99% towards goal ... so close to 20% but not there ... 11.02% of me is gone ... gone for good.
this week i am going to work out Monday on the treadmill, Tuesday is a step class, Wednesday is my session with Kari, Thursday i am flying home for a luncheon on Friday. there is a gym about 15 minutes from my parent's house so i plan on working out on Friday as well.
going home should be interesting. my dad and step mom have no idea i have lost this weight ... i am hoping to work my buns off. i am 5 5/8 pounds away from losing 50 pounds. who'da thunk it??
i did go to the Avenue to get something to wear for the luncheon on Friday... the 30/32 skirt was a tad snug so i didnt get it, i did buy a wonderful blouse that looks really great i also ordered a dress and hopefully it will arrive in enough time for Friday..
ok, this is long enough, i hope everyone had a great weekend and so much success to everyone!!!

19 November 2006 - holy shit!!

ok, so i am down 10% and i am happy. very happy ... extremely happy. less than 20 pounds until my first mini goal of 60 pounds gone by 08 December. so i start thinking about my second mini goal. i have these really great dresses that i ordered online and i've never (ever) been able to wear them. so my 2nd mini goal is to look awesome in this dress for my Father's surprise retirement party in February. the thought just came to me... so i jumped up and grabbed the dress to show to Rick.
on a whim, i tried the dress on, it fucking fit ... FIT FIT FIT FIT FIT !!! ok ok ok ... it is very umm shall we say snug around the tummy area. but it fit! (going from a loose 42/44W to a 30W)
so my 2nd goal is to have it really fit by Christmas. can i do it?
you bet your ass i am going to try...

17 November 2006 - happy Friday

well, i went to the step class and yes, it did indeed kick my ass, but apparently i liked it ... i am going back for more next week.i tried the elliptical this morning oh damn, i sucked so bad. i didnt even last a minute so i went to trusty Ted the treadmill and worked him really well. i only went for 33:10 (ha- "only") but i was doing some serious inclines (9.0 - 10.0 for 1 - 2 minutes each 2-3 times) then i rested then went back to 3.5 - 5.5 incline for most of the other time.i cannot believe the new outlook i have. i am actually in a good mood. go figure!!i am not sure what i am going to do tomorrow. i may take the day off, but who knows. it depends on how active i am at home.oh oh oh ... i hit 10% loss... yup - 40 pounds ... GONE ... i only have 19.875 pounds til my first mini goal. i am ecstatic!!

15 November 2006 - i fookeded up ...

dumbshit me volunteers to make choc chip cookies for our thanksgiving thing at work tomorrow ...
what do i do?? yup ... 6-7 (maybe more) globs of cookie dough ... and 2 baked cookies..dammit that just pisses me off ... and i know better so that makes it even worse!!i just totally blew my loss. i was almost at 40 pounds gone and probably gained.on a good note, i did work out today w/ Kary (my personal trainer) and she showed me a lot of great things that i can do. hopefully i can remember them!!ok ... i guess im just in a pissy mood, will write more when i feel like it.

06 November 2006 - long time no talk ***foul language warning*** ...

ok, what the fuck is wrong with me?
it is like i want to exercise, i want to work out ??? how the hell can a 373 pound woman want to work out on the treadmill – a lot?? i dunno, but i do. i went Sunday, i went today and my work out clothes (yes, i only have 1 set and those are too big thank you very much) are in the dryer (just beeped).
in the past 3 weeks i have gone from barely 8 minutes on the treadmill (about 2.0 - 2.5 mph) to today’s all time high of 30:23 about 2.6 mph, but a lot of it at an asskicking incline – sometimes i was at a 9.0 incline. wtf ?????!!
i have my first real appointment with my personal trainer on Wednesday, so if i do work out tomorrow, that means ****gasp**** working out 4 days in a row.
(giving you extra time to pick your jaw off the floor)
i am still having food issues, granted i am not eating nearly as much, but just now i had about 10-15 (no, i didn’t count them) scoops tortilla chips and damn they were good. i also had salsa so woo hoo … got in some vegetables!! no, i ate corn with dinner as well.
and yes, i know i haven’t written in like forever, but shit happens and i just haven’t done it. no real excuse of course.
my weight is pretty much at a stand still (see food issues above), but i go for my first fill next Monday. i hope it will give me some sort of restriction – yes, i have some now, but i want more dammit!
i cant believe it has almost been a month, i will post pictures on or around the 9th.
losing jusme

20 October 2006 - so far so good ...

11 days post op and i am feeling very very good. i saw Dr. Marsden yesterday and am down about 30 pounds.
he released me to full foods and that has been both good and bad. the bad part is that i have started getting hungry again. once i eat, i want to EAT...
for breakfast i have been eating about 1/2 cup of applesauce or a non-fat no foam pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks.
lunch today was don pablos. i had 2 chicken fajitas with some cheese, sour cream and lots of onions. it was so very delicious!!
dinner was leftovers from pappadeaux's. i had blackened catfish and it was incredible even warmed over.
i am going to start really moving next week. i will start going to 24 hour fitness before work. that should be interesting.

11 October 2006 - ... and i feel fine ..

well i am on my 2nd full day post op. the '30 to 45 minute' procedure took over 3 hours thanks to scar tissue.
recovery was just not good. apparently i am a crabby bitch.. but of course people who know me already knew that. heh. all i can remember is how much my butt hurt .. i guess i was on the table so long that it went beyond numb. i’m finally starting to get some feeling back.
the barium wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be, i just wanted to get it over with so i could have some ice chips. my mouth was so incredibly dry.
after my barium swallow i started bleeding. the nurses thought it was that time of the month until i saw that my dressing gown was stained. they had to put a pressure bandage on me (oh that was fun).
yesterday i slept most of the day. today has been pretty good. i’ve been awake for a lot of the day. we’ll see how i am by Monday when i go to work. i’ve lost about 7 pounds since the surgery. i will want to start moving more soon. not yet though.

08 October 2006 - It's the end of the world as I know it

well it is the night before surgery and I am ready... i've been really nervous / somewhat hesitant until i looked at my "before" pictures ... oh please!
I didnt stick to the diet like i should have. i did OK, but not fabulous. i think i probably dropped about 8 pounds or so. i dont even really have anythiung to say much. i still have lots of work to do, preparing to send Syd to Kathy's for school tomorrow, actually that is pretty much it, but i have to be up early to shower and get ready. i am the first surgery, so i have to be there at 630. hopefully i'll be home by noon and resting comfortably.
~losing jusme...

08 October 2006 - It's the end of the world as I know it

well it is the night before surgery and I am ready... i've been really nervous / somewhat hesitant until i looked at my "before" pictures ... oh please!
I didnt stick to the diet like i should have. i did OK, but not fabulous. i think i probably dropped about 8 pounds or so. i dont even really have anythiung to say much. i still have lots of work to do, preparing to send Syd to Kathy's for school tomorrow, actually that is pretty much it, but i have to be up early to shower and get ready. i am the first surgery, so i have to be there at 630. hopefully i'll be home by noon and resting comfortably.
~losing jusme...