so much for 1 1/8 lbs ...

i am so freaking depressed ...

i am HOPING it is water weight that has made me gain the 3 1/2 pounds.

and NO, i have not been eating perfectly (eat cause i'm depressed, depressed cause i eat ... another flipping vicous cycle)

actually, today is the first time i have deliberatly eaten poor choices due to stress / depression since i was banded in October. i bought a hershey's bar with almonds and stared at it for a good 5 minutes before i opened (and ate) it.

my thighs are killing me. even though i havent been posting my exercising (yes, i need to work on that as well) i have been putting in about an hour a day at the gym. elliptical / bike / elliptical.

today i went on the ellip for 2 3/4 miles, then 3 1/2 miles on the bike, then 3/4 mile on the elliptical again.

i spoke with my trainer and she thinks i may be "over trained" or over exerted and if my massage doesnt help my outter thighs (they ache all the time) she doesnt want to see me in the gym for 3 days. **sigh** that did not help the depression.

many WLS patients replace one obsessive behavior (eating) with another. mine is working out. i am depressed at the fact that i may not be able to work out for 3 days... how sick is that??

til 100....

1 1/8 lbs to go

gack!!

i can almost taste it ...

100 pounds that is.... 1 3/8 pounds to go... AHHHHH!!!!!! i cant freaking believe it.

i have never been able to lose more than 30 - 40 pounds and here i am. SO incredibly cool!

hopefully by the end of next week i will also be in the 200's ... that would just rock my world!

nutrisystem SUCKED

i freaking gained weight. i honestly think that i HAVE to eat 1200+ calories in order to lose weight.

i really did not want to eat dog food for more than 1 day, so i am shipping it back. BLECK!

10 May 2007 work out

this interval training is working! i am down almost 4 pounds since Saturday!!!

workout summary - 704 cals

• cardio - elliptical for 33 mins 57 secs
• up to 10 incline
• up to 204 RPH
• Heartrate - Max = 203 (110%) Average = 135 (73%)
• 60 - 70% = 12min 22sec
• 70 - 80% = 16min 12sec
• 80 - 90% = 5min 14sec


• Strength Training
• arm / tricept training

Overall a great workout

nutri-system

i will be starting nutri-system Monday. i have been in an arbitration the past 3 days and eating prepackaged food just wouldnt work. my in laws are coming to town this weekend (yay!!) so eating NS food for 2 days then going back to 'normal food' for the weekend seemed somewhat pointless.

so i start Monday..

happy bandiversary to me ... 7 months on Wednesday

down 92 pounds. i am just astonished that this whole thing works!!!



comparing 10/8/06 and 5/7/07 ... blue shirt is a size 6XL, red is a 2XL and on the bigger size. i did not have any short sleeve tee's (i am always cold now)...


FAR from slim, but getting there ...

something i was hesitant to bring up ...

but this is an honest journal.

i am going to start NutriSystem food Tuesday to give me a kick start. i will post my reviews here on the "food" ..

i just hope this gives me the kick that i need..

06 May 2007 work out

gahhhhh ... did the interval training w/ Kari yesterday, decided to do it on my own today as well. oh boy am i sore already!!

but this is working. i weighed in today and was down to 310 and a bit. that's the lowest i've been in a very very long time. (10+ years)

we bought some dumbells at Target tonight. this will help with my upper body work outs at home... :)

elliptical and upper body today

workout summary - 1163 cals!!

• interval - elliptical and upperbody work 43min 15 sec - 890 cals
  
• up to 10!!!! incline
• up to 200!!! RPM (average about 160-170)
  
• Heartrate - Max = 170 (92%) Average = 134 (72%)
• 60 - 70% = 16min 05sec
• 70 - 80% = 18min 10sec
• 80 - 90% = 09min 00sec


• cardio - elliptical for 10 mins 00 secs - 222 cals
  
• up to 10 incline
• up to 165 RPM (average about 140-150)
• Heartrate - Max = 150 (81%) Average = 140 (76%)
• 60 - 70% = 00min 52sec
• 70 - 80% = 08min 10sec
• 80 - 90% = 00min 58sec

Overall an amazing workout

06 May 07 food

Breakfast
none, went to work out

Lunch
Wendy's
1/2 large chili
1 small frosty

495 cals

Dinner
macaroni grill -
salmon with mushroom risotto - about 1/4 - 1/3 order
1 piece of bread about 3 inches long (max)
olive oil w/ balsamic vinegar

? cals

Snacks
mini babybel light
piece of chocolate cake - worth every 810 calorie ... (yeah yeah ... i know)

50 cals

so much for posting every day ...

:(

i know, i am awful .. weight loss has slowed so much, it is really frustrating.

in April i actually gained weight ..

working with Kari about switching everything up. we did an interval training this morning and she damn near killed me. i was sweating buckets after less than 2 minutes.

let's hope this works...

i am down 90 pounds today ... can i maintain and keep going???