ok I'm scared now...

my blood pressure (3 different times) was about 140/101... not good.

I have another appt Monday.. hopefully this was just a fluke of
sorts.... hopefully.

I'm on modified bed rest til then... "don't do anything"... ummm ok.

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more thoughts please...

2 more babies born 12/29...

mom was 29weeks 3days with twins. tests yesterday showed absent cord blood flow to one of the twins and one was very growth restricted

twin a - 3lb 1oz
twin b - 1lb 13oz

mom delivered via c-section, please keep them in your thoughts.

Things you may not know about me ....

(thanks She Smiles)
yes, it's taken me this long to work on this ...

- you can count the number of people i've slept with on one hand ... being fat and self-conscious ... not a good thing for sex.

- i thought i've been in love with 3 people

- in actuality, i've only TRULY been in love with 2 - one of them my DH and one my first...

- i've betrayed and i've been betrayed, both sides suck.

- i met my DH on the internet in 1996

- we met IRL for the first time February 21, 1998 and were married February 25, 1998.

- i really dont have a favorite color

- i love to read but rarely 'find' the time

- i LOVE to eat... im a huge sweet eater and volume eater...

- the real reason i run and work my ass off is so i can eat more.

- i tend to lose my temper and fly off the handle... i tend to scream and shout and then feel horrible.

- i jump to conclusions without rationally thinking - well i guess that would be the definition of jumping to conclusions **eyeroll**

- i am becoming more and more computer illiterate... even simple things that i could once do (registry edits, etc...) escape me...

- i cannot STAND bell peppers - green/red/yellow whatever ... they literally make me gag

- i've met Tori Amos back stage twice and bawled thru both experiences

- i have a plan to lose the weight after DS is born but am petrified that i wont follow it and will end up huge again.

- DH and i adopted DD from China in February 2005

- im concerned that somehow i will love DS more than DD because he's "mine"... irrational i know, but it still scares the crap out of me

OMG ... how can i forget this one???
- i LOVE sex with DH - - right now cannot.get.enough....

ok, some things are just WRONG...

DH took DD skating yesterday ... she had an absolute blast. as they were taking a short break, we saw this one woman (probably about 24-25ish) ... she weighed no less than 300 pounds... i cannot even begin to describe what this woman was wearing ... it was kinda like a tank top with spaghetti straps (the clear ones)... she had ROLLLLS hanging out of this top... and the 'muffin top' was all the way around and you could see it in all it's glory...

now now ... before you think im a complete hypocrite, i'm not... i was that big - bigger even - but i would not be caught dead in that shirt or anything close to it. i did take a picture of her at a book store, but decided against posting it... my luck, she'd belong to LBT or something... **eyeroll**

so the moral of the story is ... hell, i dunno ... dont wear white trash clothing if you are fucking huge. (ok, dont wear white trash clothing at all - especially if you are huge)...

even better than the ring i think ...

another present i received from my DH was a book ...

"Quotable Runner"....

i was thinking tonight ... damn, this man has so much faith in me, i think he has more in me than i do myself... he KNOWS i can start running again and this was his way of telling me that he will support me... even if it means me getting up at (ugh) 4am again...

words cannot describe how much i appreciate that.

thanks, Rick... ily

people are just fuct up...

this is so sad and tragic.

COVINA, Calif. – Stinging from an acrimonious divorce, a man plotting revenge against his ex-wife dressed up like Santa, went to his former in-laws' Christmas Eve party and slaughtered at least six people before killing himself hours later.

Three people were listed as missing after Bruce Pardo's rampage — his ex-wife and her parents — and it was feared their remains were among the ashes of the home, which Pardo set ablaze using a bizarre homemade device that sprayed flammable liquid.

Pardo, 45, had no criminal record and no history of violence, according to police, but he was angry following last week's settlement of his divorce after a marriage that lasted barely a year.

"It was not an amicable divorce," police Lt. Pat Buchanan said.

The massacre began when an 8-year-old girl answered Pardo's knock at the door. Pardo, carrying what appeared to be a large present, pulled out a handgun and shot her in the face, then began shooting indiscriminately as about 25 partygoers tried to flee, police said.

A 16-year-old girl was shot in the back, and a 20-year-old woman broke her ankle when she escaped by jumping from a second-story window. Those two, and the 8-year-old, remained hospitalized Christmas Day.

The gift-wrapped box Pardo was carrying actually contained a pressurized homemade device he used to spray a liquid that quickly sent the house up in flames, police said.

When the fire was extinguished early Thursday, officers found three charred bodies in the living room area.

"They were met with a scene that was just indescribable," police Chief Kim Raney said. Investigators found three more bodies amid the ashes later in the day.

None of the dead or missing have been identified.

Following the shootings, Pardo quickly got out of the Santa suit and drove off, witnesses told police. He went to his brother's home about 25 miles away in the Sylmar area of Los Angeles. No one was home, so Pardo let himself in, police said.

Police were called to the home early Thursday, and officers found Pardo dead of a single bullet to the head.

so yeah... bah humbug...

I'm ready for this flipping tree to go down.. between the 2 dogs
dragging it around in circles and DD touching it, it's gotta come down
tomorrow... FED UP with it...

overall, Christmas was pretty nice... I was overwelmed at my
present... I love jewelry and I'm acquiring a taste for platinum
now.. oh dear... $$

in the middle of opening presents, my DD said 'I wanna go see grand
pappa' (in St Louis)... that made me really tear up... sucks...
plus, really... just getting a check for Christmas, not so much
fun... and we missed out on stockings, etc... my sister (the oldest
but younger than I am-if that makes sense)... got engaged... so yay...

one good thing... we don't have a 10+ hour drive home tomorrow...

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2 quotes from Christmas morning...

both from DD:

upon opening her new princess wallet:
'hey, there's no money in here'...

upon viewing her new (anatomically correct boy) doll seeing his
"package":
'whooops'

LOL

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Christmas

.... a wrapper for my sausage fingers..

Merry Christmas!

i hope you all have a great Christmas!

nosy nosy nosy....

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HI!

and another thing...

DH's mom asked him if I have gained any weight... too bad he didn't
give the 'good' answer 'a little, not much'. instead he said 'I
dunno, I don't ask that..' SIGH...

me, I would have said none of yer f'ing business!! nosy!! grrr

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oh joys...

just found out my in-laws are visiting
after Joshua is born... I'm SOOOO excited! NOT!

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DH's bday..

out for steak... ate little less than half the steak... SOO good!!

i am sorry to say...

after a piece of cheese about 20 minutes ago...

I'M STILL FUCKING HUNGRY!!!!!!!!

today...

today's my DH's birthday ... i wonder if either his parents or mine will call to wish him a happy birthday? **eyeroll**

thoughts please....

our first February baby has been delivered today at 12:30 Central.

she was 32 weeks pregnant today.. please keep Michelle & Naina &
family in your thoughts....

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yup... preggo hormones in full swing...

http://www.sunnewspapers.net/articles/tsnews.aspx?ArticleID=428476&pubdate=12/18/2008

Dear Santa

Special delivery surprises soldier’s son

PORT CHARLOTTE — When Tina Wood took her children to visit Santa at the Port Charlotte Town Center mall in November, she never thought the experience would bring her to tears.

After asking for the games Hungry Hungry Hippos and Five Little Monkeys Jumping on the Bed, 3-year-old Aidan asked for something that shocked everyone within earshot.

“He got really close to Santa, wrapped his arms around his neck, and said, ‘Santa, I have been a good boy and I help Mommy with my little sister and I clean up after myself,’” explained 30-year-old Tina. “Then he said, ‘Santa, can you please bring Daddy home from Iraq?’”

Since September, 27-year-old Sgt. Chris Wood has been serving overseas in special operations in the U.S. Army. Because Aidan rarely speaks about his father’s deployment, she was shocked.

“When he said it, it made me really realize how much this little boy is missing his dad,” Tina said. “I know he hurts, and he shows it in his own way, but he actually took the time to plan out what he was going to say to Santa.”

Tina took his wish as a sign that a Christmas miracle was in the works.

After all, only one week before the November mall trip, Chris received word he may be able to go home for the holidays.

“It was perfect timing,” Tina said.

Almost immediately, the mother of two went to work planning her son’s Christmas miracle, which came true Wednesday morning.

In front of dozens of clapping onlookers, flashing cameras and rolling camcorders, Chris hugged his little boy for the first time in several months.

Grandparents MaryAnn and Dave Mills escorted Aidan and his 3-month-old sister, Mazzy, to the mall, under the pretenses that Santa had called grandma that morning and had a special pre-Christmas present waiting for the little boy.

Expecting toys, Aidan walked to Santa’s photo line with wide, twinkling blue eyes and a smile that could be seen across the corridor. Only a few feet away, his father was hiding behind a black curtain in a FotoXpressions booth.

After waiting for his turn in line, Aidan climbed up on Santa’s lap.

“Do you remember what you asked me to get you for Christmas?” asked Santa, also known as Paul Gagnon.

“Hungry Hungry Hippos!” exclaimed Aidan, a response that received a lot of laughs from onlookers.

“What else?” Santa pried.

After another guess, Aidan grew quiet and finally said, “My daddy.”

“That’s it,” said Santa, signaling Chris. “And here he comes.”

Without delay, Chris emerged from his hiding place, jumped the fence separating him from his son and embraced Aidan.

As the crowd erupted into applause and tears, Chris turned to Santa and said, “Thank you. This was a really nice present.”

But the tears were soon replaced with laughter as Aidan exclaimed, “I still want the games.”

Looking back on the journey that got the family to this place, Tina simply smiled.

“This is truly a Christmas miracle, but more than that, it’s a story that gives people hope and what the true meaning of Christmas really is.”

E-mail: pstaik@sun-herald.com

By PAMELA STAIK

Staff Writer

FUCK FUCK FUCK!!

TEN fucking pounds in two weeks.. how is that even POSSIBLE!!???

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my thoughts on the Biggest Loser finale ...

obviously dont read if you havent watched...

Heba - she looked really good... too bad her actions on the show caused America to vote Ed into the final 3. at the ranch she did "OK"... i think she only lost about 8 pounds more than all the other females (Michelle) and easily started weighing 30+ pounds more than her... so yeah, she did well at the ranch, but should have done a lot better... hopefully, when Heba and Ed do have a child, she will realize what a bitch she was and have changed her ways... yes, it was a reality show, but the producers can only film the way you actually were...

Ed - did better than i thought he would. he looked good.

vicky - complete and utter bitch and she got what she deserved - last place and absolutely nothing. hopefully her 15 minutes are up, but if they arent, i hope someone calls her out on the way she acted on the show. what a disgrace. hopefully her kids see reruns when they get older and question her actions.

michelle - holy crap she looked so amazing. she won and didnt have to "play the game" like others did. not to the extreme that others did... Renee looked very very good as well...

i think it all comes back to my good friend Karma ... it will kick you in the ass every time...

next season looks ... interesting. i just wish they'd go back to individuals... nix the 'teams'...

is it wrong for me..

to be ticked at DH?? I was really sick last week... sinus infection,
a cold, etc... he didn't do ANYTHING to properly take care of
himself ... no extra vitamin C, nothing... now HE is sick... he
best not get me suck again...

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the weather outside

is frightful... freezing rain, etc...

my perinatologist didn't make it to the appt.. the ultrasound tech
talked to him and he said growth looks good (3 lbs 9 oz) and to come
back in6 weeks... I'll be REALLY preggers then!!! (almost 38 weeks!)

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sigh... men!!

they really are TOTALLY clueless, aren't they??

DH's iPhone case tore.... he sheepishly asks me 'so can I get a new
case'? (I do the bills)... I said no (ummmm HELLO, your birthday is
THIS Sunday & I needed more ideas)... he's now pouting.. big baby.
I should wait and give it to him for Christmas!! yup, I'm 'mean'...

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ok, this is the coolest thing...

DD was talking to my belly just telling him hi and about her day...
he starts moving around and the more she talked, the more he moved...
über cool!!!

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why???

ok so it's cold here.. below freezing... I went to starbucks to warm
up.. drive thru cause DD in car..

speaker:
hhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiii mmmmmmmyyyyyyyy nnnnnnnaaaaaammmmmmmeee
iiiiiisssss mmmmmmitttttcccchhhhh ccccccaaaaaannnnnnn iiiiiiiiii
innnnnnntrrrrrrredsssttt yoouuuuu innnnnnnnn.......

nope, not stuttering, just drawwwwwwwwn ouuuuttttttt
I finally interrupted him.. WTF mitch?? it's COLD!!!!

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but what would the neighbors say??

ok, so DD has hit the fuckinghorrible fives... today being the penultimate... we went to DH's race, all was ... ehh... ok... she started getting antsy about 10:15 ... right about when he was going to cross the finish line... i told her to 'suck it up', dad was running 13.1 miles and we could wait outside (it had warmed up - i wouldnt make her wait out in the cold for 20 minutes...) she got cranky and fussy...

well, DH crossed the finish line (YAY!!!) and we went back to the hotel... she started talking back to me - telling me no, "IM NOT GOING TO DO THAT MAMMA", etc.... we told my parents goodbye (another YAY!!) and went up to our hotel room for a time out. 'normal' time outs last 5 minutes - this one lasted for well over an hour... an hour of her screaming at the top of her lungs... we were ALLLL the way at the end of the hall and my DH heard her at the elevator.. she was literally screaming for absolutely no.reason.whatsoever.... NO REASON... she didnt want to go to time out... she finally chose the alternative to timeout and we checked out of the hotel and went to lunch...

apparently my very DD has a 'thing' for hotels... as in she wants to live in one... "I wanna go back to the hotel" no fewer than 200 times today... seriously...

we get home... time for a nap... she didnt want to and started back talking - again... "NO... I'M NOT GOING TO DO THAT".. bullshit again... time out... "NO!!! BLAH BLAH BLAH"... this time it only lasted about 1/2 an hour, but damn the child has lungs...

getting ready to go eat dinner ... (yes, we ate out 2 meals in a row **gasp**) she goes in our room (not allowed unless invited), i ask her to leave, NO!! BLAH BLAH BLAH AGAIN... dh puts her in time out (yup, again).... guess what - - another fit! lasting 10-15 mins, im fed up, DH is fed up and hungry... alternative to time out, done... she is still screaming i tell her to go outside... she's whiny-crying... we are in the driveway, i ask if she's finished... "NO"... ok, well you can just stay out here and cry and show everyone what a baby you are.... so she does ... and she screams ... blood curdling screams... im no where near her .... screaming for no reason... our neighbor comes out and looks at her ... i tell him that she's acting like a baby and to have a good look (yeah, i'm evil sometimes).... at that point i notice that its not just a neighbor - it's a NEW neighbor just moving in ... oh dear... **eyeroll**

so at dinner entering the restaurant, she's still crying... i have to take her to the car and i start buckling her in her carseat. "are we going back to the hotel??" - we've been ignoring that question since about 4pm... i say no, she starts to cry - again... i tell her if she keeps crying she can stay in the car while DH eats and i will stand outside of the car, she'll be in there all alone... those apparently are the magic words... she stops and says she is finished... i asked if she was sure cause it's a nice night and i can use the fresh air.... "YES"... so we went back to the restaurant, she's OK ... not great, but OK... she starts asking about that fucking hotel again i say no, she starts to cry, i just get the keys out and silence... hmmm.... what the hell am i going to do when it starts getting cold.?????

does this make me a 'prude'?

my parents are in town... my dad cussed in front of DD and I hate
it... cringe every time... 'jackass', 'asshole', you name it..
including *blush* racial slurs... and I'm such a chickenshit I don't
say anything...

yes, I can cuss like a sailor but not in front of DD

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ok I REALLY

cannot stand my fing nephew... the f'er just told my DD that Santa
isn't real..

F'ER!!!!!

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ehh... not impressed..

what ICU means...

ICU = I see you...

i have a stalker of sorts on my blog... she claims that she is trying her darndest to 'ignore' me on LBT, yet she stalks my blog hoping i'll post about her...

thanks for the concern though... :)

icu ....

12/4/2008 11:38 4.248.62.198

yay!! shopping spree!!

went to target and spent wayyyyy too much money, but it's all cute and we need it, right?

i need to stop though and figure what else we will need (clothes/bedding wise)... i know we'll need more, but not sure what.

shopping spree - part 1

shopping spree - part 2

shopping spree - part 3

**shaking head**

people say they want the band SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad, yet right after they get it, they fuck up... how pathetic is that?

granted yes, i ate things i shouldnt have, but i did NOT cheat on my pre/post op diet....