what a difference a year makes ...

happy halloween...

comparing 2006 with 2007

31Oct - food

Breakfast
Fage Greek Yogurt - SOOO sick of this! 1/2 container
Apricot Preserves - .75 TBSP

Snack
14 Wasabi & Soy Sauce almonds
2 bars - Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein Wafer (ISS - yummy!!)

Lunch
Sweet/Spicy Tuna (1 pack)
Spicy Mayo (couple TBSP)
1 1/2 Eggs

Dinner
6 buffalo wings
1 TBSP Bleu Cheese Dressing

yummy.
Cals - 1180
Fat - 89.1 g (68%)
Carbs - 28.3g (10%)
Protein - 66.9g (23%)

rude people suck !

i'm just saying...

if you dont like the way someone looks, shut the fuck up. keep it to yourself. who the fuck made you Ms/Mr Tell it the way YOU see it?

shut up...

yup, im rather pissed

my legs freaking ache

Now I know why you really shouldn’t run every day. I normally run M/W/F but took DD to my work Monday for ‘twick or tweat’. So I ran yesterday morning and today so I could stay on schedule.

Daaaaaamn my thighs and calves are just so incredibly achey. The good news is, I can tell a muscular difference in my legs. My thighs are becoming rock solid.

On a different note, I made a consult appt with a plastic surgeon for my batwings. I also told them I wanted to discuss the LBL. I know I have quite a ways to go for the LBL, but I want to set a good goal weight.

Speaking of weight, I am now at my lowest 264.25 !! wooo hooooooo! 11.25 more pounds and I will be down a total of 150 pounds. My only wish is it would have happened in a year, but I can wish in one hand ….

Now all I need is to save $$$$$$ for my surgery (s) ….

bye bye fat ... it's been fucking real

thats it .. i hate to be the bearer of bad news but we are SO finished ... over ... together no more.

starting tomorrow i am going to do everything possible to get you out of my life.
including, but not limited to...
running 3 times a week
t-tapping 2-3 times a week to start
strength training 2-3 times a week
ab work 4-5 times a week

seriously, enough already.

running rocks!!

so i started week 2 for my Couch to 5K program this week. according to my body bugg, i burned 15.7 cals / minute at my peak... HOLY SHIT. i am so psyched!



on a personal note, i miss my Ambyr. terribly. my other dogs miss her as well. they are smelling her on some laundry i still need to do (and just dont want to) and laying on the towels that we used for her to lay on... 8**** (

i miss my Br..

holy shit

i found an old picture of DH and I. this is from April 2004. probably my highest. i know i was well over 400 there. on the right is from our family portrait in August 07.

dayum!!!



(go Rockies!!)

Ambyr Alexia ... 4/16/99 - 10/19/07

you were my baby grrrrl, my sweet sweet one. who let me do pretty much anything to her. She's donned Steak n Shake hats, wigs, antlers - you name it ...

she left this world today and "jumped over the rainbow" as DD said.

you were the sweetest, gentlest fur child i have ever known.

may you rest in peace

i love you

19Oct food

Breakfast
Venti Chai Latte from Bux

Snack
Laughing Cow light garlic/herb cheese wedge
1 (yes 1) rice cracker 'crisp' ... i bought these at costco for DH and i like them more than he does..

Lunch
2 servings (1 cup) stove top dressing (chicken flavor)
1/3 cup cranberry sauce

Snack
?

Dinner
??

ok ... back with the program - exercise 10/19

week 1 day 3 of the couch to 5 k program. i am progressively getting a tad faster. i dont know any other way to get my HR up. maybe an incline interval?? Monday i burned 14 cals a minute, Wed was 13.8, today was 13.2 so i dunno if my body is getting used to the running or what????

3o mins to do 1 3/4 mile - not bad at all... :)




after my run i did some ab work.
oblique crunchies - where i lay on floor, knees bent where my heels are as close to my bum as i can get them (not very) i lift my shoulders off the ground like a regular crunch but then i just go sideways and touch my ankle or calf with my hand ... go back and forth each hand. i did 2 sets of 30.

regular crunches - 2 sets of 15

pushups - 2 sets of 10 (yeah, i know) ... my arms were really sore from yesterday's workout though...

week 1 day 1 C-2-5K

i didnt think that podcast was ever going to end!! i did my first couch to 5K program today. that's 5 mins of warm up, 60 seconds running, 90 seconds walking and repeat that until you have 20 mins of running/walking then an additional 5 mins of cooling down/walking. 30 mins total.

it was nice, but damn my legs were just screaming!!

i took jachut's suggestion from LBT and went slower. i think the fastest i went was 4.2 MPH. i felt funny doing it though, but i dont think i would have been able to go as long not doing it.

i loathe cold stone ...

ok, it's not like they are delivering to my house or anything... **sigh** i need to cut the crap with the ice cream! wth??

yay ...

i was on track yesterday ... NO CHEATS!

*dancing* :)

ok, so i didnt work out this morning, but i need to rest for the 5K tomorrow. i am walking for the ADA (diabetis). i may try my T-Tapp tonight ... hopefully i'll like it!

if i've said it once, i've said it 1000 times...

yup, i need to get my shit together.

today has been good so far.
yesterday was good until dinner. i guess we just need to STOP going out to eat, huh...

ok. i can do that.

tonight i am cooking (chicken w/ portabella mushrooms, bacon and swiss cheese) so i will stay on plan.

NOMOREFUCKINGEXCUSES! i mean it!

11October work out

Ran - alternated 1 minute running (5.0 - 5.2 MPH) with 1min 45sec walking (3.7 - 4.0 MPH) 17:13
Bike - 11:19
Stairmaster type thingy - 2:00
Abs / Strength - 15:00
Stairmaster type thingy - 2:00
Walking - 4:00
Stairmaster type thingy - 2:15
Walking / cooldown - 7:45

EXCELLENT workout. i loved it!!

happy 1 year Band

happy bandiversary, happy bandiversary, happy bandiversary, happy bandiversary

yay! i cannot believe it's been a full year. down 130ish pounds. not too shabby. this is a new year for me and i need to start seeing it as a new year. i need to get my eating in check and just get my crap together.

i had a support group meeting last night that was supposed to talk about emotional eating ... not so much. we got a handout ... WOOOO HOOO.... not so much.

grrrrrrrrr

why cant i stop eating.

yes, i even eat when i am not hungry. i am falling into bad habits once again. i need to just have a clean week and i would be better.

i am not logging my food like i said i was going to. i am just so ticked at myself. at least the scale isnt going up without coming down. but i've lost the same 4-5 pounds over and over again....

yes, i know it has been quite awhile

new month, new attitude.

i havent been eating very well, not horribly but not as well as i should be.

i have pretty much stopped pro-actively losing weight. i eat OK and i exercise a little bit and hey! if i lose then there is a nice bonus. i've pretty much been losing/gaining the same 5 pounds the past several weeks though.

this stops now.

new 12 week challenge is starting today. i have not been to the gym since Thursday. i am going today after work and then have an hour scheduled w/ Steph tomorrow and Thursday. i need a nice kick in the pants.

so for the next 12 weeks i will:

1. log everything that goes in my mouth
2. work out a minimum of 4 days a week
3. log my work outs
4. complete 55 miles on the elliptical a month
5. try to run 1-2 times a week (faster than 4.5 mph)

my goal for the 23rd of December is a very aggressive 230 pounds. that will be losing about 40-45 pounds in 3 months. extremely challenging, but do-able!! if i keep my act together!!