well damn, this sucks...

ok... so i went grocery shopping this afternoon...
i got everything on my list, veggies, grapes on sale (woo hoo 97 cents a pound), tomatoes and then i made the mistake of going by the bakery ... OMFG!!!!!!! there was this cake ... this CAKE ... sour cream pudding cake ... OMG OMG OMG ... it looked amazing... sooooo good... i was drooling... and it was on SALE ... how could i not get it???

i didnt bring my debit card shopping, so i had to use DH's... me having mommy brain, i completely forgot his PIN number ... 3 times... locked the stupid card... declined, declined, declined... yup - im an idiot sometimes...

so i leave the store empty handed... :( no tomatoes (been craving them)... and no cake!!!!!! gahhhhhh!!

DH was wonderful and dropped us off at home and went back with the list.. (yes, yes... including the cake). well, he didnt get the sour cream pudding cake, he got the sour cream angel food cake... **sigh** I DONT WANT ANGEL FOOD CAKE.... I WANT PUDDING CAKE (dont mess with a pregger's cravings)... i storm off to the store to exchange the stupid cake.... its now after dinner, slight rumbly in my tummy ... i cut myself a piece ... ehhhhh... not so great.... i dont dare tell this to DH ... dammit!!!!

too harsh of a response????

I have absolutely no desire to even go to your wedding much less be in your hick wedding. Oh wait, it wont be a hick wedding cause dad is paying for it.

And for you to ASS-Ume that my daughter would be in your wedding. Um, not so much…



yes, it's only a wish-response

why... why... WHY???

ok, my favorite sister (ummm, NOT) is getting married next year... she's a total bitch and only contacts me when she wants something..

well when she announced she was getting married to loser-boy (24 years old, not going to school, no job, still lives with mummie,etc) she set up a "the knot" web page. on that page she announced that my other sister (ehh, not close, but she's not a total bitch like baby sis) would be her maid of honor (not a shock, they are close) and MY very DD would be a flower girl. ummm, maybe ask me first???

that was about a month or so ago. so this morning i get an email:
i just wanted to see if you and (my DD) wanted to be in our wedding... blahblahblah...

initial reaction was to delete it. seriously! and i havent replied yet (my answer is HELL NO i will not stand up in your hick wedding) but i dont know what to do about DD... inital reaction for her is hell no as well just cause i cant stand the 'bride', but ... i should just suck it up and say yes to her.

no clue what reason i'm going to use for me not being in it. i will have delivered by then (summer wedding), i guess i could say that i dont want to leave the baby for that long ??

*reason #1 i think she's a total bitch*
a couple years ago, we were home for Thanksgiving. our flight home was about 630-700 am on a Sunday morning. my parents left for somewhere Saturday night (gone for the rest of the weekend). i asked her Saturday afternoon if she could drop us off at the airport. "I just cant do that, I have to drive home Sunday to prepare for school and i dont want to be tired while driving (3-4 hour drive)"... in other words, i dont want to get up and drive you cause i'll be sleeepy... yet she got up for day after Thanksgiving shopping at 4am Friday morning.... so we called a cab - $65 thank you very much. FINE BITCH.

she was up pounding around (she's a big girl too) until 3:30 am that morning we were leaving... so fucking much for being too tired.

i was so f'ing pissed. SOOOOOOOOO f'ing pissed, i finally told my (step)mom... i KNOW she told bitch-sis... not one word to apologize ... she's a f'ing bitch and nothing is going to change my mind...

wow ... guess i needed to vent ????

ummm, wow

i've lost 9 pounds since my last fill (07Aug)...

IF YOU THINK YOU ARE TOO TIGHT, YOU PROBABLY ARE!!!
and yup, i succumbed to a craving for lunch... McDonald's McRib ... its the only thing (besides their iced coffee) that i like. i took one bite with the bun (tempting fate, i know)... i knew it wouldnt work... but i did eat the 'meat' bunless ... yummmmmmmmmmmmmm

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

... so much for 2 weeks notice next week.

my boss came by "there will be information about the voluntary packages in the next 2 weeks"... the 'voluntary packages' would give me a severance that i just cant NOT stick around for ...

dammit dammit dammit...

but if i do get the package but have to stay more than a month or so, i dont think i'm going to accept it... and of course, if i dont get it, i'll turn in my notice 1 minute after that...

so no, I can't sleep

... so I grabbed my Doppler and was patient (unlike most times) and I
heard his heartbeat!!!!!!

I'm so freaking happy I'm crying! :)

it's a good solid 150... went up to about 153 but for the most part
stayed right at 150. of course DH is out running so he didn't get to
hear it... I did call his cell to leave a message, but doubt it could
be heard...

oh well, next time I know to be more patient!

on the band front, I'm going in for a slight unfill this afternoon,
I've been PBing a tad more than I'd like and have pretty much been on
mushies only since Sunday or so...

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cute story about my DD....

DHwas working late tonight (left 1/2 hour later than normal)... apparently DD was hungry.

she looked up at me and said "we go out to eat tonight"... i said no, there's water on the stove for spaghetti... "i dont want psgetti"... we go out to eat. this happened a few times, me adding something each time (sausages, broc & cheese)... after about the 5th time, i said well DD, when you can pay for it, we'll go out to dinner, OK? she said OK... then once again ... we go out tonight... i told her she doesnt have any money to spend.

"yes i do"...
"oh really, where?"
"in mama and dadda's room"


DH has coins on top of his dresser ... she wanted to pay for dinner with that ... :)

ok ... i want honest opinions people ...

Ayerton (air-ton) for a boy's name ... ??????????

thank you and good night...

i hope.... yet another killer headache strikes and i just took 2 tylenol PM...

on the very cool front, i heard Tigger's heartbeat today ... solidly in the 150s... YAY...

and im a bad blogger for comments.... sorry guys... :( i suck but really, the head is about to explode...

omg...

wanna laugh until you cry??

http://mom-101.blogspot.com/2008/08/50-100-calories-hour-or-about-4.html

its not only the post, but the comments.... i dread the day.

off to my OB appointment....

have I mentioned lately

how much I loathe my f'ing job??

well, it's true.. detest is too nice of a word.. I had the worst bid
run of my career and it f'ing sucked..

can't wait til I'm outta there!!

grrrrr

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I *heart* Tylenol PM

that is all....

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i really..

fucking hate people who aren't banded who (think they)"know it all"...

tigger!! :)

just wanna say

i f'ing hate my job and really cannot stand my co-workers... why i took this job in the first place (other than the huge promotion and more money) is unknown to me...

weird hunger...

*posting on LBT too*

so I did get a fill a few days ago and it does seem to help the
CONSTANT hunger I've had with this pregnancy.. weird thing is - I'll
eat dinner (1/2 piece tilapia and 3 bites broc), be satisfied - full
even... then 2 hours later be STARVING... enuff to wanna chew my
left arm off... so at 9:00 last night I'm eating shredded BBQ
chicken.. I literally take 3-4 small bites - done.. not 'full', but
good.. I just don't understand how I go from 1 extreme to the other
SO quickly.

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i loathe my co-workers

ok ... i asked my 'neighbor' if she watched Army Wives last night and immediately said that i had not... snoopy chick (other neighbor) came by, oh i havent watched it in a few episodes, and they proceed to talk about it including last night's show...

bitches!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

oh dear i am sooo ticked at DH (d does not mean dear right now)...

first of all he was up really late watching the olympics ... fine and dandy... well he comes to bed and shines his phone right in my eyes ... i know it wasnt intentional, but geesh...

then he cant sleep ... so he's out in the living room, sending me emails ... ummm ... they go right to my iPhone... i get an alert when i get an email... 2am... not a good thing.

then at 3am, for some reason, his phone alarm goes off... why he would set an alarm for 3am, i have no idea... he's not in the room... he's lucky he didnt come back to it in pieces on the floor...

he comes to bed about 4-430 and he's receiving some sort of text message alerts...
FINALLY, he's in the shower getting ready... i have another 8 precious minutes of sleep in my 'snooze' and his freaking alarm goes off again.

so needless to say, i'm really tired and in a really fowl mood.

I know...

no updates... sorry.

I'm gaining weight, doc said not to worry about it, but I am...

headaches are debilitating.. my DD seems to have forgotten how to be
quiet for 10-15 mins...

latest ultrasound looked good, but no really good pictures. :( we
did get it videotaped (VHS-who has a VCR any more??) so when we
convert it, I'll post a small video.

off to try to get rid of this doozy of a headache...

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