awww fuck...

I shrunk the wrong clothes... shrunk some of my new 18/20s...

dammit, wayyyyy too short now. the t-shirts just suck now.

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the belly ...

W I D E ...

you can't really tell in the pic, but I got a bit of camel toe going on.

but I dont give a fuck - they are 18/20s!! they will be hanging soon.

new outdoors xrcize clothes!

yup, a tad snug, but they are 18/20s! :)

Oprah - 28Nov

Oprah has weight loss success stories on today.

wow, incredible!!

reminded me of a long time ago (maybe the year 2000)

breakfast -
1 liter of ruby red squirt
2 breakfast sandwiches from QT (gas station)

lunch -
another liter of ruby red squirt thruout the day
whole lunch - 2 "veggies" (usually potatoes), meat and of course a roll
dessert

continue drinking soda
dinner - LOTS ... LOTS and LOTS
maybe another 2 liters of ruby red squirt.

CRAZY ..

oh boy my ignore list on LBT is getting huge

between the SPARKLY HUGE SIG pic people and the people who cant handle RnR posts and feel ATTACKED ... (ohhhhh poor you) and then there is just one poster who doesnt know what the fuck she's talking about...

i have about 10 people on ignore. hope they dont post in the WL challenge cause i guess they wont get updated...

4 mins and I'm leaving

getting very very pissed now. my fucking god

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1130 appt

still waiting.

FUCKING FREEZING in this office too!

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i feel like crap

i am cramping right now. wanna crawl back into bed. of course TOM would start the day i have a plastics consult.

yup - consult today, but i think the MD will look at me and laugh then leave... **eyeroll**

more later, gotta get DD out of bed

28 November fuel

Breakfast
Atkins Caramel Latte Shake

planned

Snack
Almonds?

Lunch
Sweet/Spicy Tuna

Snack
Atkins Shake?

Dinner
Sweet/Spicy Turkey Sausages
Salad w/ Ranch dressing and tomato

27 November food

Breakfast
Atkins Caramel Latte Shake
9 Lime/Chili Almonds

Lunch
Sweet & Spicy Tuna
Mayo
Eggs

Dinner
Rotis chicken
stuffing ... :(

going public again ...

no need to keep it private.

if you cant handle what i say, dont read ...

life really sucks sometimes

im just saying.

simply amazing

cornflake grrrrl

ehhhh
show good so far.. until CG

where's Tori?

gunna be right there

always in motion...

;)
in tori lobby

work fucking sucks

one of the worst bid runs in my career and it was 100% my fault . I
was at work yesterday for almost 12 hours. as the day went on, the
more chocolate I consumed. why do I still eat my feelings?

I haven't SERIOUSLY moved my ass in days - there's my answer. I left
my shoes at home. tried DH's shoes - wayyyyy too big and he has worse
arches than I do. dont wanna go down that road again.

TORI (Amos) is tonight . I can't fucking wait. although I dont know
half her new stuff'. I purchased the "gold package" so I get to
attend part of the sound check. I had the platinum package, but
realized it was only 1 seat (instead of 3) and went back to change it
- lost the package ... :( :( but I have alreadymet her (3 times)
but it would have been nice to meet her when I wasn't HUGE.

oh yeah, DD's first concert. hopefully she will do ok.

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wide awake since 330am

sigh WTF???

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at work a few days ago...

I heart my nano... :)

my lungs ache..

cold air in my lungs sucks!!

I went a mile and DD was too cold to continue so we are off to the
house.

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grrr mama's not happy

no fucking parking for the trot.

I TOLD D(amn) H that we would need cash. no we won't.

only parking left costs 5 bucks.

sooo we are having our own trot at a park by out house. I then get to
cook a big turkey dinner. I am so excited.

can you tell?

I WILL rualk today!!

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gobble gobble

on our way to the turkey trot.

it is very brisk outside. windy too. yay!!! not really.

didnt sleep worth a damn last night thanks to DH's snoring. I'd
finally get back to sleep and he would start up again.

you'd think he weighed 500 lbs based on his snoring.

ok must help look for food

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almost time ...

to get out of here and start rualking ...

wooo hooo ... 20mins to go.

work wise - bid run prep has gone fine. i should be OK. hopefully. (dont wanna jinx anything...) i am as ready as i can be for tomorrow.

i am at work and listening to "Double Cross" on my iPod

wonder if i can listen to this and rualk at the same time? its getting pretty good! :)

oh dear mother of god!

WTF is up with the bitches at LBT.

oldies suck, nymphs are the best, i am better than you and know more even though i havent even been banded yet ...

fuckers.

running on hold

more details later... 8)

yup ... everything is all good ...

i sent you a PM on LBT. kind of cryptic still though ... sorry. :/

in the words of Piglet ...

oh d-d-d-dear ...

still awake.. 12:16am

not a good thing....

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mmmm... the scent of new shoes.

they look great! will they get me running again??

another new pair of shoes..

hopefully these will allow me to run again...

I am very surprised they took the old shoes back, but it was a smart
move on their part - I will be a customer for a long time now.

I went for my walk this afternoon and after 1/2 mile EVERYTHING below
my hips hurt so much.

I will try to run tomorrow.

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fuel 12 Nov 07

maybe im not a runner..

week 3 of couch to 5K is not going well for me. :(

i did my 90 seconds of running, then my 90 seconds of walking and just couldnt do the 3 minute run. i dunno what it was / is... my calves cramped up like a mother and it hurt just to walk, much less run.

now, 3 hours later my legs are crampy, my feet need a REALLY good rub/massage and my right glute is achey... i did walk over 3 miles. 2 miles on the treadmill (31 mins) then i went to a new park to scope out the new trail. its a pretty good one that i will more than likely go to. it does have a slight incline, but i can deal with it. i did a lap (.298 miles) in 5:21.4. next time i will time the entire run/walk (ok, i walked 99.5% of the time). i may even go tomorrow ...

WTF????

i want to run ... i love the rush of running ... why wont my body cooperate?? and i'm not running fast at all ... 4.4 is my 'average'. i even dropped down the speed to 4.2 and i just couldnt do it.

so instead of c25k - this is what i did:
30 seconds running 4.2
1 min walking 3.5-3.9
45 seconds running 4.4
2 min walking 3.5-3.9
1 min running 4.4
2 min walking 3.5-3.9
1 min 15 sec running 4.4
2 min walking 3.5-3.9
45 secs running 4.5
cool down.

this is nowhere where i want to be ... NOWHERE... i am disappointed in myself and my will power (or lack there of..) im depressed. the one good thing - my eating was on target today! in fact, there are some "brownie bites" (that i bought this weekend and had 3-4ish), and didnt have any today! yay me.

i need to work on posting my food all the time - not just my good days ... **eye roll**

running gear

we went to Run On Dallas today.

bought a reflective top and some shorts. the top is a LADIES XL!!!!
wooo fucking hoooo!!!

first outdoor run - a bust

a combination of too many new things.. new shoes (tied too tight I
think), new trail, trail with slight inclines, DH and DD were with me,
too much of a distraction I think, I didnt properly stretch..

too many excuses. :( next time I need to just suck it up and run. I
feel like crap that I couldn't do it. I did get a nice mile walk in,
but that's not any consolation..

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09Nov stuff

ok - so i cheated and copied something i posted in LBT as well...

i bought a new pair of running shoes today ... New Balance something or other. it was really cool. i went to an actual running store and tried on 8 pair of shoes... wow, the service was great!! i did buy the running shoes and a pair for aerobic type exercise. guess i'm committed (or should be - ha) to taking more classes.

i need to concentrate on my eating. cant fall into bad habits again ... need to stick to healthy proteins to feed my body properly.

i did not run today. i just ran out of time. i did, however, walk a ton today. i explored 2 different trails to run outside and walked w/ Ddog and DD. almost 12,000 steps today!! i was so proud of my DD (4 next month) she did so well on that trail. it was just under a mile and she walked/ran it with me. i did break into a run a few times, but i was in sandals so didnt want to mess up my feet (too late )

i am noticing quite a few changes in my body. my DT(rainer) took measurements for last month and i lost 1 inch in my waist, 2 inches in my hips and a tad in my legs. im surprised my legs didnt lose more, but my muscles have become more pronounced. gotta love major leg muscles.

i signed up for our turkey trot in Dallas for Thanksgiving morning. i wanted to do the 15K, but know there is no way i could do it.... so DD, DH and I are doing the 5K. wooo hoooo...

gack ... it's official ...

i just registered for the Minnie marathon less than an hour ago and it is starting to sink in now.

25 full weeks until i run. i have a feeling it is going to fly by.

more info can be found here - http://disneyworldsports.disney.go.com/dwws/en_US/endurance/events/detail?name=Endurance2008MinnieMarathonWeekend15KEventDetailPage

running

seeing JulieNYC's time in the NYC Maraton makes me cry ... not in a bad way at all. it gives me hope that i can actually do this whole "losing weight and running thing".

Julie started about where i did weight-wise and she has lost an incredible 200+ pounds. i am so incredibly proud of her, such an incredible inspiration.

so, once again - YAY Julie! you deserve everything you have and tons more!! CONGRATS!!!!

i have to congratulate

JulieNYC! She did simply amazing in her marathon.

HUGE kudos to her!!!

05Nov food

Breakfast
Atkins Mocha RTD shake

no AM snack

Lunch
scoop of tuna with egg and spicy mayo

Planned:

Snack 2
iSS protein wafer bar
and/or?
Atkins Caramel Latte RTD shake

Dinner
4 oz summer sausage
little onion

05Nov work out

couch to 5K week 3

1.66 miles in 25 mins followed by some leg stretches

walked up the 2 flights of stairs to my office.

did i mention i am wearing an outfit (from Target who runs small) - skirt is 16/18! :)

I miss LBT

:(

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Terridoodle's avitar saying and my running

HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT??!

how awesome is that?

I did week 3 of couch to 5k today. I ran for 3 minutes. it was not
easy, but I did it!

90 secs run/walk
180 secs run/walk
repeat once

it was really a rush.
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happy sunday

well i am safely back from St. Louis. didnt do horrible. made a couple of choices that could have been better, but no real regrets.

I WENT SHOPPPPPPING!!!! Hopefully my last shopping spree (430*ish dollars) at The Avenue.
and that is after quite a bit of savings. it was buy 1 get 1 half-off AND i had a 20% coupon off everything! wow wow wow.

you know the really cool thing - 18/20 pants!! ALL of them!! all but 2 shirts were 18/20. 2 were 22/24 but they were just too fitted for me. i wasnt going to try on those dress pants, but i thought why not? grabbed the 22/24 and the 26/28 cause my belly is still huge... the 22/24s were too big! i had to get the smaller size ... OMG OMG O M G!!

i am now the same size as my sister. i know i weigh more than she does, but that's not going to be true for long.

running really is working i think.

speaking of Running - thoughts are with JulieNYC who ran in the New York marathon today. LBT is down (grrr) so i have no idea how she did. hopefully she had a great injury free race!!

i dunno if i've mentioned it here or not, but i was thinking about running the BOSTON MARATHON in 2009. **sigh** i dunno if that is going to be a reality now. turns out i have to qualify from a different marathon with a 5 hour something minute finish time ... **sigh** dunno if that can happen. : \ but i'm gunna try!

im thinking about going back to a step class to help speed up the weight loss. i guess i sound selfish or whatever, but i need to get this weight off YESTERDAY!! i will not injure myself though. if it is too much, i will stop and just continue to run.

not sure how i am going to handle my training sessions. i only have 1 hour-long session left, then a few half-hour sessions. i am thinking about training for an hour a week instead of 1 1/2 hours. the other day i normally trained would be spent on cardio / weights, just not structured. i dunno though. i feel like i am 'firing' her, ya know?? and she really has been great with me so far.

ok ... i am going to try to run tomorrow morning and then do something else tomorrow afternoon or just come home early ; )

LBT is still down and i am bummed ... i didnt get to read much this weekend at all and am starting to suffer withdrawl symptoms.

later gater ... (DD's new fave expression)

halloween blow out

i wont even go into details cause i dont know them.

i waited 2 days to have halloween candy and am nauseous now from it ... too much ...

what a fuck up.

WTF???

i am SO physically hungry today. (not head hunger - actual hunger!!) grrrr...

i am already eating lunch. its 1038AM!!

i guess i will give my body what it is craving (food) ... i will keep it as low carb as possible and log everything.

02 November food

i woke up starving today so i had about 5 oz of muscle milk chocolate RTD.
Breakfast
Atkins Cafe Caramel Shake

Snack
8 Wasabi & Soy Sauce almonds (gack ran out!!)
28.5 (yeah, i know) lime / chili amonds ...

starving!!! WTF??!
lunch part 1? snack part 2??
Tuna salad (same as yesterday)

Lunch
8 chic fil a nuggets ... yes 8

Dinner
4 buffalo wings
2 TBSP Bleu Cheese Dressing

sigh...

this morning's run was hard. i just couldnt get going. i didnt want to run ... but i did. in fact, for the first time ever, my average speed was 4.0 MPH. walking at 3.7-4.0 and running at 4.4 - 4.7 MPH. i was on run 2 and i was already counting the 'runs' ...

i then did some leg and ab work. nothing too strenuous, but enough to keep me sweaty and gross. i am now exhausted. i dunno what it is. i woke up about 415am and just couldnt sleep. now i am having a difficult time keeping my eyes open.

and i 'gained' .25 lb. i know it is water or maybe sodium from the shrimp / crab last night ... but it still kinda bums me out.

DD and i are going to my hometown to visit my parents today. hopefully the seatbelt will fit well without the extension. last time i flew it was OK, but not much room. DH isnt going - he has to work. i hate that! dont know how much exercise i will be getting either. oh well, they havent seen me in awhile, so it will be nice. of course, i've only lost about 8 pounds since August, but i think i am more toned now. :)

mmmmm caffeine is kicking in from my caramel latte shake. it's just the right amount..

my challenge to myself for this weekend - try to not go into carb overload ... i packed my shakes for breakfast, will have nuts as my snack. maybe dad will take me for a steak ... yummmmy! but i wont hold my breath. they like to eat in or pizza or something ... yay... pizza. ick.

have a great weekend!

01November Food

i am running tomorrow, so cals need to be definitely above 1000. dont want the woooooozy feeling like Tuesday!!
Breakfast
Atkins Cafe Caramel Shake

Snack
14 Wasabi & Soy Sauce almonds

Lunch
Tuna salad (same as yesterday)

Snack
Atkins Cafe Mocha Shake

Dinner
5 oz King crab meat
2 shrimp (.66 oz)
2.5 TBSP butter

mmmmmmmm delish!!
Cals - 1291
Fat - 98.9g (69%)
Carbs - 16.1g (5%)
Protein - 82.6g (26%)

wow...

i am looking at my ticker and it just hit me ...

i've gone from almost 60 BMI (59.4) to 38.9 ... holy shit! un fucking real!