'cuter' pictures...

the baby is below the arrow in the last 2 pics

its a baby!!! :)

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im slacking so horribly bad and good for me food literally makes me nauseated but a pop tart is great. despite that im not eating much and have lost a little bit.

im just exhausted a lot... A LOT... A LOT ..

so im home with DD with the chicken pox. i had them when i was young and my doctor said that i should be fine.

DH's boss actually wants their child exposed to THE POX so DD is going to stay with them tomorrow while we go in for the ultra sound... i was getting bummed cause i didnt think DH would be able to come, but he can.

YAY!!

and WHY am i craving Toaster Pastry things????????? grrrrrr

pretty in pink.... ;)

well fuck a duck...

my DD has chicken pox....

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ok, so..

none of my clothes fit... at least none of my pants/shorts fit...

now granted, they were 14s and 'fit' ... aka snug but I looked good
enuff to go out in public ... they fit at Disney early May and I've
dropped about 12-14 pounds since then...

but my belly.... it honestly looks like I have a baby bump
already... I've been told its 'just bloat', and by the time the bloat
is gone, the true baby bump will be there!! teeee heee heee!!! :)

btw - dammit, I still want my roast!!!!!! grrrrrrr.

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OMG - I SO have mommy brain

I was so excited... I've been craving a roast with onions and
mushrooms for days now...

put it in the crockpot, yes I turned it on, BUT I forgot to set the
timer for the correct time... I come home from work, expecting to
smell a delicious roast... nothing... I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO bummed... :(

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just wanted to say thanks...

I'm beat so I am currently sucking on responding to comments on my
blog, PMs from LBT and regular emails...

I'm sorry... :(

its 935 on a Saturday night and I'm going to bed...

I did want to sincerely thank everyone for their thoughts and
prayers... they are GREATLY appreciated..

c
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still 'morning' (ha!) sick..

yay..

pleasantly nauseated,
LJM...

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1/2 unfilled...

without fleuro... (sp??)
pretty painless..

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backache...

:(
all previous miscarriages started with a nasty backache...

thoughts & prayers please...

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ultrasound...

i have my first ultra sound at my first office visit which is a week from today!!!

GAHHHHHHHHH!!!! how am i going to wait another week????!!!

i stand corrected...

17,448!!!

little to no appetite. but when i want something, i WANT it...

fatigue has set in so horribly horribly bad, all i want to do is sleep.

hCG count

17,000

up significantly. not the 20,000 that i was hoping for, but its up a bunch. YAY!

i was actually kinda worried cause the nurse didnt call - it was my Doctor... i was like OH NO... but its good. its really good.

blood drawn...

now I wait. (I'm)patiently..

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had a dream..

I was bleeding... hopefully it will remain JUST a nightmare...

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ok ok OK.....

FINE!

 

ive scheduled a slight unfill for this afternoon.  i guess when you yack up breakfast (fruit), yack up lunch (3 bites of a chicken sandwich) and just generally wanna yack, an unfill isnt a bad idea.

 

im going to a new place, they do not do anything under x-ray which to me is important cause of my baby bean...

 

im weak from yacking up so much, im tired from not sleeping well (hello, freaking 103 outside yesterday!!!) and im just plain bitchy, well - cause i can be...

 

i so dont want to be at work, i SO want to quit but unfortunately, that's not gunna happen until we win the lottery and you know that saying "cant win if you dont play" ... that would be us.

 

 

the non-update update...

no new hCG results to post and I was good and didnt go after work
today..

I am going to go Wednesday after work. i figure my hCG should be at
least 15,000 (ideally 20+, but that size of an increase would make me
"ok", no, not great... I will then call my OB's nurse for her opinion.

hm... started typing this and forgot about it... SOOOOO tired. 'nite

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seriously...

it is 96 degrees inside my house...

yeah, A/C is broken...

Christine
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jambalaya recipe

Rice, Shrimp & Chicken Jambalaya

serves many

2 tbsp oil

1 lb shrimp – fresh

4 skinless boneless chicken breasts

1 lb spicy cooked sausage (Summer sausage)

6 oz ham - cubed

2 celery stalks – chopped

3 garlic cloves – minced

2 cups chicken broth

1 cup canned crushed tomatoes

1 tsp cayenne pepper

¼ tsp dried thyme

sprinkle Italian parsley

1 bay leaf

1 ½ cups rice

heat oil in large pot

add chicken chunks and sausage slices, cook until brown (5 mins)

stir in ham cubes, cook 5 mins longer

add all remaining ingredients EXCEPT RICE AND SHRIMP, bring to a boil, stir well

stir rice, season to taste

when liquid returns to boil, reduce heat cover pan tightly

simmer 10 mins

remove pan from heat, QUICKLY add raw shrimp to top, quickly replace lid and set aside for 20 mins to let rice and shrimp cook

i usually only use 3 meats (shrimp, sausage, shrimp)

oh dear - MAJOR restriction

not good.. calling tomorrow to have them give me an unfill.

lunch was 1/2 a grilled cheese sandwich - SUPER FULL.. uncomfortably
so. snack, 1/4 of a medium peach, so full it hurts to breathe.. SOOO
not good.

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hCG levels

first test on 10June was 3059
second test - 12June was 5430

soooo, the numbers are going up. not doubling like they 'should', but going up a nice 'respectable' rate.

im really really trying not to worry.

really i am...

ok - i need to chill the F out ....

i posted a freak out that i was probably losing and some wonderful woman gave me a great link about hCG (heaven forbid i do my own research and just rely on 1 internet source)

* 5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
* 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
* 7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml

at the time of the test i was 5weeks 6days... my hCG was 3059.... so well within the range that the American Pregnancy Association (whoda thunk there was an association??) says is OK.

" Caution must be used in making too much of hCG numbers. A normal pregnancy may have low hCG levels and result in a perfectly healthy baby. The results from an ultrasound after 5 - 6 weeks gestation are much more accurate than using hCG numbers."

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html

sooooo... im going to TRY to chill out and just wait until my Doctor calls tomorrow with a (HIGHER, please) number...

thanks for the fingers/etc crossed, it really means a lot to me.

LOW hCG. :(

I'm trying not to freak out.. hCG was 3059, really low for 5 weeks 6
days... its an 'OK' level for 5w0d, not great...

It doesnt look promising... :(

this sucks so much.

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+

its positive... going in for another test tomorrow... at least my GP
doesnt think I'm crazy...

she suggested coming in thurs or fri, I asked her opinion and she said
to go in thurs so I dont have to wait the weekend to make sure my hCG
levels go up..

fingers (toes, eyes, legs, arms) still crossed.... I want the hCG to
double from tues...

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what happens when Starbucks makes an oopsie?

you get 2 drinks for 1

update - ok not really

I've been exhausted .. can barely keep my eyes open.

so my OB won't see me until I am 8-10 weeks out so no appt for 2 more
weeks...

I took another home test and the test result came back faster than the
control, so that is a pretty good sign... I'm going to stay positive
with this.

so being the paranoid person I am, I went to my GP for a blood test.
results will be back by Thursday. I may go back early next week to
make sure HCG levels are rising as they should. paranoia anyone??

thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. its been relaxing (think
sleep) so far. right now DH & I are on our way out to eat without
DD!! *gasp*

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how beautiful is this??

on the flight home from Toronto. weve arrived safely, are all
exhausted. thank god Im off work tomorrow.

ok, seriously...

WHO starts a race at 9:30 in the morning?? really!?

it was hot, it was humid and there were f'ing HILLS!!! grrrrrr

despite that, I did make it in less than 45 minutes (barely).

after I proceeded to get rather violently ill... we were running late
and were just going to stop by Starbucks on the way... they werent
freaking open.. at 7:45am!!? wth? so all I had to eat before the
race was a mini muffin.. won't do that again.

after the race, we did go to bux and I got my iced chai (with no
ice)... felt better.. I guess I just needed something in me.

we picked DD up from in-laws then to the pool for 'fwimming'. then
bath and I literally crashed on the bed for 45 mins.. I'm still
beat. DH went to get a light lunch (mcd's bleck) at least their iced
coffee is good... alhough should I be drinking much caffeine??

everyone please keep your fingers crossed and if you pray, say a short
one that this pregnancy holds...

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????? 2nd test...

just took this tonight. I thought it would be a darker line by now
though...

leavin on a jet plane

going to Toronto for a long weekend ... doing a 5K while we're
there... id love to do it under 45 mins (HA HA HA) ....

remember, I'm S L O W...

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omg ... must.eat.carbs.....

apparently those 6 miles took everything and more outof me.

i did have a bowl of cereal when i got home but i was WIPED OUT... i literally couldnt get off the couch. slept for well over an hour.. it took all the energy i had to heat up some tortellini we had last night.

felling much better now and i surprisingly didnt scarf them down and no PB ... YAY!!!!

now i can actually get some stuff done.

05June08 - LONG distance day

DAMN it was long and i was so freaking slow. SOOOO freaking slow. yes, the long distance is supposed to be about 20% slower than your average, but at times, it felt like i was crawling. about mile 4-5 my feet were really getting sore... and i was just thinking oh damn, i will need to do this at least FOUR MORE TIMES in Chicago...

can i do it? fuck, i really dont know. i REALLY REALLY dont know. and i know i have about 18 more weeks of training, but fuck... i cannot imagine going even more than 10 miles. seriously.
blah...

ok....

i am SO f'ing bored here at work.

yup, i have stuff to do...

nope, no desire to do it cause it's boring work ... grrrrrrrrrrr

04June08 training

scheduled for cross training today. 30 mins at the gym. working on my schedule now, it will more than likely be about the same as Saturday.

all dressed...

nowhere to go....

.... doing laundry

who would have thought that doing laundry would be inspirational??
not me.

I reached the bottom of my pile and only had 1 shirt left to fold...
my DH's shirt. as I was folding it, I noticed how soft the Tshirt
was... how much i wanted the stupid Tshirt... I looked at the size.
Large. dammit... I do fit in his XL shirts - no problem, but Large.. not so much..

just out of curiosity (and self-torture cause I KNEW it wasn't going to fit...) I tried it on..

ladies and gentlemen, see MY 'new' shirt..

03June08 training

holy crap! awesomly amazingly wonderfully great run today...

i pushed myself - HARD... i have to admit i havent been running much. more of a fast walk. well today i decided to just suck it up and do it. so i walked ... and walked a little more (averaging about 4-ish MPH) then i ran a block... (averaging about 6-ish MPH)... then walked for a little more then ran. but this time instead of running 1 block, i ran 2 blocks ... i did this a few times and it felt great.

i then did my normal sprint from the corner of my street to my house and i freaking BOOKED it... i ran faster than i've ever gone before ... and Garmin registered TEN !!!!! MPH... holy freaking shit!

so, yeah.... it was an amazing run.

things i did differently:
wore new socks... they are really nice and i cannot remember the name of them for the life of me ... soft .. sof something ... they are extremely snug and fit like a second skin.

tied my shoes tighter... MUCH tighter. i went to Luke's (running store) Sunday and they said that may be the reason i lost my toenail. the shoe needs to be tight enough to where you cannot kick them off at the end of the run (i'm SOOO guilty of that)

wore a running skirt... yes, a skirt. it was weird at first, but after 5-10 minutes it felt good... i do however, need to get some body glide. chub rub of the thighs... **eye roll**

i did set a new pace goal for the next 30 days. last goal was 5 runs with a pace of 14:58 / minute or faster. this new goal is 5 runs with a pace of 14:49 / minute. this will be very very tough for me as i am not fast at all. but i will push myself to do it.

yay...

apparently I can be a huge bitch...

DH questions what I'm eating (quantity not quality) and I damn near
bite his head off..

sorry, I'm FUCKING HUNGRY... I joked that I probably could (not
would) eat the entire meal.. 'well I dont think you should' ...
well fuck you too. ass.

damn near ordered dessert just to spite the fucker.

I could see it if it was something HORRIBLE to eat, but it wasn't.

asshole.

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thats just f'ed up...

ok ... so on August 24th, i am scheduled to go 16 miles.... my DH is currently looking to run a half ..

look what he found ...

http://hottesthalf.com/

crazy?? .. yup...
thinking about doing it? ... yup...

01June08 - training day 6

mixed feelings about this one. Garmin was pretty inconsistent. i'd be going the same pace and it would range from 15:12 min mile all the way up to 24:xx min mile!!! very frustrating. but, i cant blame it all on Garmin. i was really tired physically and my glutes were really sore. the first 2.5 miles just seemed to crawl. thankfully the last half went quicker...

i am beginning to get to know our neighborhood really well!! ;)