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going in for c section NOW

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no update really

- pitocin started 530 this am
- contractions started almost right after
- water broke on it's own (I thought I peed the bed!!)
- epidural about 2
- my BP dropped
- Joshua did NOT like it one bit, his heartrate went from normal
130-150 to 70(!!) stayed that way for a few minutes
- his heartrate & my BP are now great as long as I lay on my LEFT side
(only)...
- as of 10:51, I'm dilated to 3... I think dr is coming in to tell me
C Section

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sleep?? what's that?

pitocin started about 5:30

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TOTAL

pain in the rear to comment on a comment from my iPhone (keeps
crashing browser) so I'll just post ;)

thanks for your comments. I REALLY appreciate them... I did just get
about 90 or so min sleep, but (piggy me) wanted to eat before my
midnight cutoff ..

Joshua is being stubborn!! he DOES NOT want to stay on the monitor..
stinker!!

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joshua's heartbeat...

all looks great.. not in any sort of labor that I know of yet...
nurses assure me when I'm in labor I'LL KNOW IT...

induction started

IV placed (one try!!!) and cyto inserted... 830 on the dot...

O.M.G...

this is becoming more and more real... im so anxious and scared shitless at the same time... i am now in my new room (the {"presidential suite" - its about 1 1/2 times as big as the old labor room)... bp monitor is now on for good, and i am on the baby monitor for good until i deliver.. hopefully he wont be an absolute stinker and keep moving...

the nurse will come to the room in about 20 minutes to start my IV (ugh!!) and get the cytotek inserted. after that i have to stay in be for at least 90 minutes to get the cyto working (aka let it melt).

will try to update when i can...

ok... so I'm REALLY

flying on Ambien right now and this may not make sense... just a
warning... :)

for the past few nights - including tonight - right before I go to
sleep, I play Joshua's play list... - imagine, good boy, a baby
changes everything, halleluia, good things, higher, etc.. 34 ish
songs... most nights he 'dances' for me.... and I bawl cause I know
in just a few short days I won't get to do that any longer.. yes,
I'll get to hold him and snuggle with him, but the thing right now,
only _I_ can do this and it feels super special.... I'm really gunna
miss it... :**** /

I still can't wait to hold my little man in my arms though.... it's
after midnight, so less than 20 hours - today - is the start of the
induction... WOW!!!!

thanks for coming along for the ride with me... **hugs** to you all!!!
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induction Friday

4:30am not 5:30... it's a very good thing!!!! :) !!!

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dammit!!

it was actually good... oops

mr. man is apparently out of room

he's getting much bigger and i just dont see myself stretching any more. i used to be able to lay 'quasi' on my side/stomach... not so much anymore. it actually physically hurts when i do so.

and he is pulling my gall bladder scar, i dunno if its my uterus hitting it but whenever i put the slightest bit of pressure on it, not a good feeling

2 more days ... nope, i am not counting today (Tuesday) nor am i counting Friday cause we're starting super early... hell, i may even go into labor on my own with the cervitek (sp???)... im kinda wishing i would go into labor Tuesday or Wednesday... i could maybe be home for the weekend for when my parents come into town (Thurs - Mon) i wish they would stay later just to help out, but sucK is life....

ok, i've been up for a bit over an hour ... time to go back to bed...

ok, Ambien is my new BFF

especially when i have shitty neighbors...

i dunno ... im in some sort of funk i guess ... i REALLY just want to go home for a day or two.. have me come back Thursday night ... i wish... but i can imagine my BP going thru the freaking roof those days... plus we are having cleaners come over Wed & Thurs so i really cant stay home...

*sigh* i miss my DH... i miss the alone time... i miss sex with DH ... (i've been on bed rest since 1/1 and had a yeast infection before that - - L O N G time) ... im trying convince him to come to the hospital just for some cuddle time tomorrow while DD is with my mom's club, but he has a full afternoon of meetings ... **cry**

no news....

3 days til induction!!
thursday night they are going to start 'ripening' my cervix if im not dilated yet. then early friday morning they will start the pitocin if i dont go into labor on my own.

my DH has strict instructions to post here and my facebook status once Joshua has arrived. Meredith will post on LBT for me (thanks!)

my bp has been "ok" not horrible, but not perfect... i think the bottom number has been in the 70s all day, so not too bad..

the shitty news is that this f'ing hospital has once again given me a noisy neighbor... she is more than likely long term (here til she delivers - and she's less than 35 weeks AND on the baby monitor 24/7 which means i get to hear them 'looking for' the heartbeats (twins) with the volume UP ... grr)... i know i only have 4 more nights, but dammit ... id like them to be QUIET nights... if she's noisy at night i will complain. im supposed to be RESTING ... and her husband is a fing loudmouth... i guess i am just too polite. when DH and DD are here we talk quietly and if DD starts acting up, DH takes her out of the room... maybe that will change tonight and she'll hear how thin the walls are... ?

but anyway... Joshua is moving sooo much... it really is cool i felt a specific body part this afternoon... i was just rubbing my belly (i do that a lot lately) and felt a kinda lump in it... i pushed it, it pushed back... the nurse was in here talking to me and i asked what she thought it was, more than likely an elbow... awwwwwww....! :)

call me crazy...

but I think Joshua is goiing to wake up about 3am for something...
food, diaper, SOMETHING... why else would I be waking at this time
even after Ambien?? sigh

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grrr

ok, seriously... shift change for the nurses was over an hour and a half ago... it is S L O W here today/tonight.. when i went up for ice at 650 (10 min before shift change), there was one other person on the board besides me and they were all standing around chit chatting...

i am EXHAUSTED tonight ... SO tired i could fall asleep now... but my 800 vitals are 30 min overdue, i still need Joshua to be monitored and that usually takes from 20-90 min depending on the nurse and how well he cooperates...

im getting really quite pissed... i'd understand if it was super busy, but ITS NOT...

eviction date set

my OB is on call today, I really tried to convince her to induce me
today, but she called Joshua a 'wimpy white boy', thankfully that had
been explained to me by Faith and I understood.. ;) I tried to
convince her that he's half Asian, but it's a no go unless I go into
labor au natural...

ok... Joshua's official eviction date is on the books.. THIS Friday,
January 30th EARRRRRLY in the AM... they will start the process
Thursday after dinner...

omg... I just can't believe it's THIS WEEK!

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ok, maybe im just in "a mood"

but someone i've never even really talked with on a certain message board asked me how i was spending my time besides eating ...

WHAT.THE.FUCK lady.... i dont know you and if you intended it to be funny, it wasnt. seriously.

cause Im too lazy...

to log in on my laptop, I'll just create a new post... ;)

BP is a steady 140s/60s... anywhere from 143-148, as it was
Tuesday... so it's ok for now...

WTH is wrong tho... everyone tells me appetite decreases at the
end... soooooo not in my case... so hungry 24/7!!! grrr!!

ok benadryl FINALLY kicking on... nite all & THANK YOU for the
comments & wishes..

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so very very

... tired
... bored
... sore (shoulders)

i had another wake up call from neighbors at 330 this morning ... assmunch husband was talking SO very loudly... STF up!!! so i was awake from 330ish til about 7 then woke up for breakfast and watched Dexter for a bit... then a nice 45 min or so nap... so needless to say im kinda tired today.

good news is, i told my doc that a few nurses have told me i am "low priority" (truth!) and sometimes if they are busy, i dont get my ice - which is essentially my liquid cause it melts in my crystal lite... so i asked him if a few times a day if i could get up and get my own ice and HE SAID YES!!!! yay!

i was warned that it's a "long walk"... so we'll see how i handle it.

god, i am so freaking starving! i just ate one of those cupcake cookies and OMG Joshua is on a major sugar high!!! he's bouncing around my tummy like it's a trampoline! i LOVE LOVE LOVE it! that is the one thing i'm really going to miss! i just emailed DH what he was cooking for dinner and he's cooking one of my fave dishes (potstickers).. hopefully he'll bring me some ... ok ok ok ... several! :)

i think..

Joshua is starting to 'drop'... i feel pressure umm down in my hoooo haa a bit... not a comfortable thing... now i know why REALLY pregnant women 'waddle'... when i do get a chance to get up, i do waddle a bit... but it also is pressure when i just sit down...

not that this really MEANS anything, it could be another couple weeks before i go into labor on my own... so... we shall see...

ummm

where's the CHICKEN in my grilled chicken sandwich??

dammit, I loathe stupid people

update 20jan

Dr came in ...
"as with 98% of cases with Pregnancy Induced Hypertension, your BPs are creeping up"...
i told him i knew and was getting concerned. he said that its not bad enough to take action yet, but if they continue to rise, Joshua will come earlier than the 30th.

i asked him when i should become very concerned and he said when it hits about 160s/100s-110s. i asked what if just the top number hits 160s (its been about 143ish/60s and he said then we need to reevaluate and possibly induce then. the bottom number is what REALLY concerns them, but they dont want the top number getting too high either...

sooooo... we'll see. ideally, if i can keep him in until this Friday (37 weeks - which is considered 'full term') i'll be a pretty happy camper.

an historic day...

what an incredible day it is..

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dammit...

i bit the bullet on Mob Wars...

some F'er knocked me off! asswipe!

omg...

dummy me JUST realized... 10 days and I'll be in labor and maybe
holding Joshua! gahhhhhhhhh!!!!

stupid TV is giving me weird cravings... I now want a spicy chicken
sandwich & fries from Wendy's....

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ok.. so now i feel

like a complete and total bitch...

yes, it's 336am... im awake ... woke up to talking from my neighbor... im tired, the talking continues for a good 5-10 minutes - its NOT quiet... i really need to sleep... im exhausted and the benadryl is not blocking my ears. i call teh nurse. she comes in (with the scale, sausage fingers are back - up almost 2 lbs overnight)...

SHE was in teh otehr room admitting the patient, apologizes, says they'll try to be as quiet as possible... i ask if the lady is ok... and kind of stop myself because
1- they cant really talk about it and
2- she wouldnt be admitted if everythign was "OK"... (duh)..

on the way out the door the nurse says lets just put it this way, there will be a rose on the door soon. ??? - im confused and ask for clarification .. "fetal demise, she's only 11 weeks though"..

it doesnt matter if you are 11 weeks or 20 weeks... anytime it is hard (i've miscarried at 7-8 weeks and its horrible...)

how incredibly sad.. she's in my thoughts...

i am SUCH the slacker...

i owe several people emails and i wanted to say im sorry here .. i've been L-A-Z-Y when it comes to emails cause its a pain in the ass to type sideways ... i actually have a bruise on my arm from where the table hits it when i type...

i'll try to be better soon... i know, i suck.

on the hospital front, all is ok ... i was up .2 lbs this morning but i think im just not drinking enough ... yesterrday i think i only had maybe 32-40 oz of liquids.. (and the piece of chocolate cake didnt help)... BP is fine if i continue to lay on my side..

i did just find out some ick news... the OB that i left for my current OB is on call on the 30th so she will more than likely be delivering Joshua... there was nothign WRONG with her, per se, she just has no personality what so ever... gahhhh!!

oh well, she's going to hand me my baby boy so i guess there's SOME good to her... ;)

my spahhhh room 1/2

here is my room at the SPAHHHHH ...

ok, the formatting is all wonky, but you're smart ... and will be able to figure it out. ;)

'front door' - curtain for privacy - closed facing my bed. it closes all the way, but i leave it partially open so the nurses wont close it "wrong" (leaving it open facing my bed)



ummm, the bathroom ... kinda tiny...



my 'view' most of the day - facing the door the flowers from my parents and Joshua's first "bed"


thrilling, huh??

my spahhhh room 2/2

ummm, my bed...


baby / BP monitor and a chair (with my body pillow i use at night)


the couch for DH and my view of the parking lot


'drink station', sink and make up bag (HA!)


TV area & my dresser

induction info,,

IF my BP continues to cooperate, my OB said they will induce me when I
am 38 weeks which will be January 30th. BUT that does not necessarily
mean he will be here that Friday. they will more than likely start the
process on Thursday the 29th then start the 'good drugs' on Friday to
get me into labor... she said i could labor all day on the 30th and
deliver on the 31st or if its a quick labor (fingers crossed) it could
be the 30th..

sooo...im just going to chill out here until either:
- i go into labor on my own (entirely possible and i'm far enough along
to where they will not stop it)
- if my BP spikes and continues to stay up (hopefully not) and they
induce me early
- January 30th when they induce me...

pregnancy stuff (in other words, i cant think of a title)

things here are boring but i am finding myself less and less on the internet... it really IS difficult to type while i am laying down... typos and all ... plus its just a pain in the ass.

bp this morning was 115/56 or so ... i lost a bit more weight but nothing dramatic.. they keep changing scales on me, so who knows... i'm just gunna call 7 pounds since Friday... its ALL water though.. my fingers really do look like fingers and i think i'd probably be able to put my rings on... but will leave them at home, one less thing to worry about.

i received a visit from a mom from the Mom's club i belong to... FANTASTIC group... they have taken DD pretty much every day this week so DH can get some work done... even just a couple hours helps out so much ... but anyway, she is literally about to pop - due in less than 2 weeks, this is her 3rd so she's HUGE .. plus she says she has huge babies (think 9+ lbs!!!) yikes! she knows i was interested in cloth diapers so she brought me a Target bag FULL of them! like i said - fabulous group!!

i received a surprise ultrasound today ... dr. g - well, let's just say he has the personality of a gnat normally... i've seen him about 4 times before today and he's just different... well today he was really OUT there... i guess the field trip to the hospital made him different... he was playing me songs off of his iPhone and everything while the tech was looking at stuff... he says there's no reason what so ever to deliver Joshua right now... (unless of course BP gets out of hand - but i'm trying to be a good girl)... trying *as i sit up typing this* - eyeroll..

good news is - Joshua is 5lbs 4oz give or take a little.. and i heard it from my favorite NICU nurse that it's a good weight, so yay!

ok, i've been sitting for about 7 minutes, im going to lie down and watch something then take a lovely Benadryl (my new BFF) and hopefully sleep thru the night. my OB is on call here tomorrow so that'll be nice (she's in a practice with about 10 other docs and they rotate)...

oh look - its an update!

bed rest is working...

since Friday, i've lost 7 pounds of 'water weight'... im less swell ;)

my BP is stable, early this morning, it was 115/58 ...

soooo, this afternoon, i decided my hips just hurt ... really hurt... i decided to sit up just a bit... i was still kinda on my side, but sitting up... nurse came in and we talked about maybe eventually being able to 'walk the hall', but not yet... she said what i was doing should be fine, i asked her if she wanted me to lie down to take my pressure, she said might as well see what sitting up does to you... 155/90!! dammit!! she put my bed down, i laid on my side for no longer than 5 minutes and my pressure dropped to about 140/60ish...

soooooooooo.... my poor hips will have to just take the abuse until Joshua is born... it's a small sacrifice to keep my little guy in my tummy a bit longer. the nurse told me im almost 36 weeks and more than likely he'd be fine especially with the steroid shots i received for his lungs, but id REALLY rather deliver at 37 or later... 37 is considered full term, we'll see...

so thats the story .. had yet another FABULOUS dinner tonight... DH & DD are on their way with a proper dinner ...

another failed dinner

chicken & dumplings.... I call it 'slop'... even the beans were
horrible..

holy crap...

LOTS of food!!!

more mystery meat..?

and those don't look anything like green beans....

wow....

im losing weight ...

im down 3 pounds in a couple days... its NOT cause im not eating crap (thank you DH for the 18 pound bag of M&Ms)... the swelling is going down so im losing the extra fluid... yay....

why???

ok ... i woke up about 530... didnt sleep as well as night before, but i still slept "OK"...

i know they have to weigh me and i have to give a lovely 'sample'... gave my sample - i'm getting pretty good at that ... i can normally even do it without going all over my hand now - even at 530 in the morning...

i called the nurse at 535 - 'im up for a minute, you wanna come weigh me'? secretary said she'd send her "right in"... its now 557.... I WANNA GO BACK TO BED!! but you know, as soon as i lay my big butt on the bed she'll stroll in ...

grrrrrrrrrrrrr

MUCH better

oh... and today in particular sucks...

because today was the Disney Marathon... Rick and I were supposed to be running it today... **sigh**

update...

doc came and saw me this morning (730 - ugh!!) and said all looks well. i will be in here til i deliver (unless of course i get a f'ed up doc who says i am discharged..)

he said delivery would probably be next week - Sunday starts this week, so NEXT sunday's week... i reminded him im not due til 13February and he said it may be later depending on how my pressures are... ideally, i'd like to wait til the last week of January... ideally....

here - in the hospital on bed REST - vs just IN bed at home... my pressures look great... in fact, my last one was about 130/50or60... so really quite good...

soooo im sitting / laying here thinking about what i want to do ... i have a loud neighbor and doesnt help much with the rest, but hopefully she'll shush soon...

i have a few movies on my laptop and 24 does start tonight. i hope its better than the past few seasons...

thanks everyone for their thoughts & prayers ... MUCH appreciated...

UGH!!!

admitted to the 'spa'

yup, I've been admitted until I deliver.. 2-3 weeks probably.

THANK GOD for health insurance!!!!

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ok, I just need to create a 'template' email

off to labor & delivery again...
148/94ish... yay... ok, not

Christine
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cleaning my old hard drive

... i found my work out schedule for January 2007... HOLY SHIT!

i was literally working my ass off. M-W-F-Sat 2 sessions... one cardio and on M/W/S a class in the afternoon... Friday i just did 2 sets of cardio. T/Th i had an hour long training session and always did 30 mins of cardio beforehand. Sunday was my 'lazy' day - didnt do anything... lazy lazy girl....

after Joshua comes, i'm seriously thinking about doing this for a month or so (wont be able to continue it too long with a newborn) so my commitment to myself is 3-5 times a week. work.my.ass.off...

WHAT THE F IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE???!!!!

ok, ok, ok... i admit, FARRRRRR from perfect...

but in the past DAY i've read two very disturbing posts on LBT...

first was "i had surgery 2 days ago, but i ate a burger today"
second was regarding portion control "i just ate a double-double cheeseburger from in-and-out"

WHAT.THE.FUCK people??????? did you NOT have weight loss surgery?

**shaking head**

fucking idiots!

REALLY PEOPLE.....

i think i can gnaw a freaking arm off!!!!

poor DH .. how's he going to work with only 1 arm?? ;)

have i told you lately...

that i'm FING HUNGRY????!!!

seriously...

breakfast - HUGE bowl of cocoa crispies
lunch 11:00 - almost 2 whole chicken quesadillas from Chipotle
snack 2:30? - WANTED a wendy's spicy crispy chicken sandwich but settled for a bux chai tea
dinner 5:00ish - no fewer than 7-8 chinese dumplings (potstickers) DH cooked
snack 1 7ish - handful of Chicken in a Biscuit
snack 2 9ish? - 2 cupcake cookies (see a post below)
oops - forgot snack 3 1030ish - 1 piece of Kraft Deli Select Swiss Cheese (the only cheese i will eat right now...) YUMMIE!!!!!!!!!!

and now its after midnight and i freaking want a rotisserie chicken ... i honestly think i could eat the WHOLE thing...

the only good news of the day ... i didnt gain one freaking pound since new year's eve... considering i've been pretty much eating what i want AND on bed rest for what - 5 days... not bad...

going home

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back to labor & delivery

being monitored... BP was high at office, ok here... we'll see....

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yup, i'm home

you'd think that being on bed rest and bored stupid i'd be posting all.the.freaking.time, but im just not ... im not keeping up with my blog list either .. so sorry if i havent made any comments on your blogs...


what have i been doing? nothing that requires thought ... playing Sims2, reading (Twilight series) and moping around...

im doing OK i think. i go in for an appointment tomorrow. hopefully my BP will cooperate and they'll let me stay at home. but it is stressful here! between to whiny obnoxious dogs and my lovely DD who has to have her way no matter what - even if "mama's sick"... i think i'd still rather be home in a comfy bed ... ya know?

so DH's boss is amazing... DH called him Sunday and he didnt even have to ask - his boss just said "work from home, done" ... DH feels like since he is the manager for a good sized group, he HAS to go in a couple times a week for a few hours - make an appearance - which i totally understand... soooo, my Mom's club is helping out SOO much. i cannot believe the overwhelming support that i have been offered!!! they are taking DD to playdates, to restaurants so she can play in the playground (McD's, Chick Fil A, etc...) and they are bringing food...

which is a good thing cause last night's dinner ... ummm, yeah, not so much... and it was EASY ... wait til tonight's Chicken Fajitas ... i think im going to smell onions (burned) in the house for days.. oh well, DH really IS trying ... and he's seeing how difficult it is home with DD sometimes..

im tierd of being in bed... really tired of it ... i have NO CLUE but im hungry 24/7 (bored maybe??)... the one good thing is, i can feel Joshua moving A LOT more now than i could when i was up and about ... LOVE IT!!

so, i will try to update regularly... i am going to pack a bag for the hospital just in case they admit me tomorrow... i will bring my laptop and supposedly the rooms have free wi-fi .. if not, there's always Sims2 ... yup, imageek!! ;)

thanks so much for your thoughts... i REALLY do appreciate them!!!

99%

going home tomorrow... tests look good.

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update on meeeee...

bp looks great when I'm on my sides, I'm 'allowed' to get up, use the
washroom, sit up straight (not on sides) about 20 min every few hours
(think eating, etc..)

I'm pretty bored... I am NOT the sit and do noting type and it's
driving me bonkers!! plus, I really miss DH & DD - a lot!!!

last night pretty much sucked... went to 'bed' about midnight, tossed
& turned until about 230, 4am, nurse comes in to take BP... THAT I
was ready for, what I wasn't expecting was to have to get out of bed
and on the fing scale..!! W.T.F..???!!! at 4am!! grrrrr... so I'm
up til about 6, fall asleep.. RIGHT AT 7am, blood draw... WTF
people... I'm here supposed to be RESTING... 8am food - horrid !! -
then BP, okokok, I'm up!!!

DH/DD visit for a bit, bring me a chai latte & bfast sandwich... all
is right with the world except I'm a tired & cranky bitch and DD just
ate so she has SOOOO much energy to burn... *jump jump jump*...

after lunch, I took a nap and slept longer than I had all night... it
was wonderful!!! :)

sooo... here I am, should be released tomorrow.. :)

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so I've been admitted

which I guess is better than COMMITTED, but ehh.. yeah, I'm TRYING to
be funny...

blood pressure all day has been quite high.... so at 4, I called my
doc and the nurse said go to labor & delivery NOW... *sigh* DH is
still at work, etc... I get him home, pack - just in case - and load
up iPhone with movies... all of which I've probably seen 10+ times...

off to L&D triage .. it's FULL!! wait a little bit... they see me,
lay on left side, monitor.. BP does go down, lab results look
good... woooo hooo .. I'm going home... until nurse talks with
doctor... I 'get' to stay for the weekend... just found out maybe
more.... *sigh*... if I wanted a break from DD, all I had to do was
ask DH ... ;)

soooo that's the story so far....

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ever had one of these??!

if not, don't start... VERY addictive!
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hey - WT!!

HELLOOOOOOOO

looks like another early delivery

30 weeks pregnant - due to high blood pressure... scary...

i've been pretty good all day... only times i got up were to take a bath (not even a shower - i sat while bathing)... and i admit, i did stand for 5-7 minutes to put the roast in the oven... otherwise, i've been on my ass all.day.long.... driving me freaking CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

**edited**
she did have her baby, 3lbs 9oz, 16 inches. lungs NOT mature so she is intubated ..

thoughts go out to them.

reflections of 2008

let's see if i can remember ... yikes!

January - plain and simple ... SUCKED... major issues/problems but they were worked out... still creep up every once in awhile, but nothing horrible

February - day after v-day found out i was pregnant (SURPRISE!!!), 2 days later i miscarried. plastic surgery on the 29th. changed.my.life....

March - recovering from my tuck, back to work, it sucked as much as ever. started really training for my 15K.

April - training training training ... LOL, that's all i can remember. had a couple 9 mile runs here.. gah!

May - DISNEY!!! completed my 15K, great experience. fabulous time at Disney with my family, DD had an absolute blast at all the character meals...

peed on a stick... very surprisingly, 2 lines appeared!

June - peed on more sticks, lines became darker and more pronounced.. flew to Toronto right before my birthday, ran a 5K, horrible morning sickness before/during/after the race... that was pretty much the last time i REALLY worked out during my pregnancy.

had first ultrasound (only one babe in there!) and he looks great. i've always called him a 'he', just intuition i guess...? my exhaustion and nausea continued..

told family & friends of pregnancy

July - not much going on, nausea continues. hating work even more. towards the end of july - pants stop fitting... nausea starts to subside, but massive headaches start coming daily.

have first ultrasound where he looks like a little BABY (not a speck on the screen)... so sweet!!!

August - MAJOR MAJOR issues with headaches, work sucks beyond belief. i cant stand the job nor the people... beg DH to let me quit. he, surprisingly, says OK.

September - little do my co-workers know that my last day of work will be the 15th. headaches are still there, but not every minute of every day. SEPTEMBER 15, 2008 - i retire heh. from American Airlines. i leave not telling one person goodbye (i think) cause everyone of the bitches are just that - bitches... yup, you - Treasure, Susan - and for god's sake get some clothes that MATCH, Pearla (not so much - not outwardly anyway), Sandy, Lin and Lynda - initially didnt think so but since i havent heard from her at all since i left - i know she was just a fake ass bitch as well... and most of all Sherri my 'boss' ... more like dictator than anything ... nowhere near a 'mentor' or anything...

ahem .. ok guess i needed to get that off my chest...

started staying home with DD. fun. :) challenging!!!

October - November - where the hell did the time go? headaches stopped about 17-18 weeks into pregnacy, DD was a princess for Halloween... all going well... :)

found out he really is a 'he' ... worked on names - finally decided on Joshua Kellan.

December - time is flying by. towards the end, it feels like my first trimester all over again. nausea, EXHAUSTION.... on new years eve i was informed my blood pressure is HIGH (140/101) and will be on bedrest for a few days. hopefully that will work.

January & beyond 2009 - hoping i will have a healthy family of 4 (yes, we are stopping at 2 kids). i want to start running again to drop the baby weight and the rest of my excess.

i wish everyone a happy and healthy 2009.