Monday, January 19, 2009

ok.. so now i feel

like a complete and total bitch...

yes, it's 336am... im awake ... woke up to talking from my neighbor... im tired, the talking continues for a good 5-10 minutes - its NOT quiet... i really need to sleep... im exhausted and the benadryl is not blocking my ears. i call teh nurse. she comes in (with the scale, sausage fingers are back - up almost 2 lbs overnight)...

SHE was in teh otehr room admitting the patient, apologizes, says they'll try to be as quiet as possible... i ask if the lady is ok... and kind of stop myself because
1- they cant really talk about it and
2- she wouldnt be admitted if everythign was "OK"... (duh)..

on the way out the door the nurse says lets just put it this way, there will be a rose on the door soon. ??? - im confused and ask for clarification .. "fetal demise, she's only 11 weeks though"..

it doesnt matter if you are 11 weeks or 20 weeks... anytime it is hard (i've miscarried at 7-8 weeks and its horrible...)

how incredibly sad.. she's in my thoughts...

1 thoughts:

She Smiles said...

That doesn't make you a bitch at all. She's loud, you can't help it if that stops you from sleeping. Sleep in important at this point for you!

But yes, thats really sad. How awful :(