ok, maybe im just in "a mood"

but someone i've never even really talked with on a certain message board asked me how i was spending my time besides eating ...

WHAT.THE.FUCK lady.... i dont know you and if you intended it to be funny, it wasnt. seriously.

WHAT THE F IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE???!!!!

ok, ok, ok... i admit, FARRRRRR from perfect...

but in the past DAY i've read two very disturbing posts on LBT...

first was "i had surgery 2 days ago, but i ate a burger today"
second was regarding portion control "i just ate a double-double cheeseburger from in-and-out"

WHAT.THE.FUCK people??????? did you NOT have weight loss surgery?

**shaking head**

fucking idiots!

a new LBT hero...

Donna113 - you rock my socks!

HOLY SHIT! talk about obsessive!

yup... there's your IP address too....

and look - doggie - you have your own label for my blog...

but dont let your head get as big as the rest of ya....

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pssstt.... hey 'joiful'

i never said i was perfect...

yup, i've eaten things i shouldnt have - had a Sonic breakfast sandwich today in fact, but i didnt want to fuck up my band and eat a big mac 4 days after surgery...

OMG!! I met TexasBecky!

:)
she's amazing! and looks absolutely phenominal!!

we are going run/walking tomorrow. yay!!!!!

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food addict ... um, yup that would be me!

i posted this earlier on LBT... basically the thread is about food addictions. i will not repost the original post's post, but it basically said that yup, she is addicted and how the hell does she fix it?

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please know that you are far from alone. even being banded, losing 150ish pounds (with lots more to go), i still have a severe food addiction. severe food addiction. right now i am struggling more than i have in a long time, not sure exactly what or why it is, but its happening in a huge way right now. i have been 'food sober' for 2 days now, actually not even that - i bought jellie bellies for my upcoming race yesterday and had a few handfulls - but i was within my WW points range so lets so it was an 'ok' day. not great, but certainly could have been a ton worse.

there are even days when i work against my band. the very tool that i had installed to help me - i defy. eating eating eating ... and not always the model bandster and going on liquids after i pb... i eat something until i have to pb, make some room and then eat some more. doesnt sound like a very 'successful bandster'... granted i think that's happened 1 maybe 2 times in 17 months, but its happened.

life as i knew it pretty much turned upside down earlier this year, not excusing it, cause it is what it is. but, that didnt help matters.

i was one of the lucky ones who was so fat that my surgeon didnt require anything. no sleep apnea testing, no nutritional counseling, no psychological counseling... all i had to do was have my ticker checked to make sure i wasnt goign to croak on the table and i think i had some blood drawn.

i like jack's perspective, but its not eating that im addicted to ... eating i dunno - insert something incredibly good for you - SOY - eating soy anything (bleck btw) is incredibly different from eating something really good tasting (to me)... it doesnt even have to be 'bad' for me, i dunno ... chicken thigh (breast too tough)... i just cant eat anything... im a relatively picky eater - always have been - too bad the band didnt help in that area....

PMS for me is a bitch. thankfully, i get so tight right before that i can do liquids only for a day or so... but a shake goes down just fine thank you very much

so yeah, do i have a point? i dunno ... just know that you are not alone out there... im literally taking it one meal at a time right now.

so fucking fed up

there was an LBT post from someone who had surgery 4-5 days ago ...

a different brilliant person posted the following:
man that's a long time to be on all liqids I had only 1 week on liquids second week soft soilds week three regular food , I say try some tuna in the second week just a tablespoon something that will stick to u and not hurt

WHAT ... THE ... FUCK?

i finally just completely lost it at the arrogance and stupidity of this poster and basically said who would you rather listen to, someone with horrid spelling and grammar or your surgeon.

i did end up taking it down, because it wasnt a RnR thread, she did see it and claimed
"wayne I guess if we all was prefect like her we would not be here. oh!by the way its called a typograhical error it happens to the best of us.thanks again for your input..."

other examples of her posts ... these are NOT typos ...
thank you so much for not being selfish for relizing that family comes first and that your brother love you so much and will do anything in the world for you . you finally relized that money is not everything and will not make you happly. we went though some much together, our lives and stories are amost exact I love you so much and will be there when your baby girl is born

I lose more eating soilds because I got full faster and the soup have so much salt it keeps the weight on you.

I seriously doubt that a tablespoon of tuna in the second or third week will kill someone or harm there lapband process.

well actually u did miss th MD after my name thanks for noticing, and I know he would mine because I ask already thanks for you input.

and i KNOW i am far from perfect but good fucking god... typos ??? ummm, i didnt know you could typo correct words when you meant different ones... the soup have so much? that last one just has me seeing stars .. ?????

oh boy my ignore list on LBT is getting huge

between the SPARKLY HUGE SIG pic people and the people who cant handle RnR posts and feel ATTACKED ... (ohhhhh poor you) and then there is just one poster who doesnt know what the fuck she's talking about...

i have about 10 people on ignore. hope they dont post in the WL challenge cause i guess they wont get updated...

oh dear mother of god!

WTF is up with the bitches at LBT.

oldies suck, nymphs are the best, i am better than you and know more even though i havent even been banded yet ...

fuckers.

running

seeing JulieNYC's time in the NYC Maraton makes me cry ... not in a bad way at all. it gives me hope that i can actually do this whole "losing weight and running thing".

Julie started about where i did weight-wise and she has lost an incredible 200+ pounds. i am so incredibly proud of her, such an incredible inspiration.

so, once again - YAY Julie! you deserve everything you have and tons more!! CONGRATS!!!!

i have to congratulate

JulieNYC! She did simply amazing in her marathon.

HUGE kudos to her!!!

I miss LBT

:(

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Terridoodle's avitar saying and my running

HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT??!

how awesome is that?

I did week 3 of couch to 5k today. I ran for 3 minutes. it was not
easy, but I did it!

90 secs run/walk
180 secs run/walk
repeat once

it was really a rush.
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