3 days til induction!!
thursday night they are going to start 'ripening' my cervix if im not dilated yet. then early friday morning they will start the pitocin if i dont go into labor on my own.
my DH has strict instructions to post here and my facebook status once Joshua has arrived. Meredith will post on LBT for me (thanks!)
my bp has been "ok" not horrible, but not perfect... i think the bottom number has been in the 70s all day, so not too bad..
the shitty news is that this f'ing hospital has once again given me a noisy neighbor... she is more than likely long term (here til she delivers - and she's less than 35 weeks AND on the baby monitor 24/7 which means i get to hear them 'looking for' the heartbeats (twins) with the volume UP ... grr)... i know i only have 4 more nights, but dammit ... id like them to be QUIET nights... if she's noisy at night i will complain. im supposed to be RESTING ... and her husband is a fing loudmouth... i guess i am just too polite. when DH and DD are here we talk quietly and if DD starts acting up, DH takes her out of the room... maybe that will change tonight and she'll hear how thin the walls are... ?
but anyway... Joshua is moving sooo much... it really is cool i felt a specific body part this afternoon... i was just rubbing my belly (i do that a lot lately) and felt a kinda lump in it... i pushed it, it pushed back... the nurse was in here talking to me and i asked what she thought it was, more than likely an elbow... awwwwwww....! :)
Monday, January 26, 2009
no news....
Monday, January 19, 2009
ok.. so now i feel
like a complete and total bitch...
yes, it's 336am... im awake ... woke up to talking from my neighbor... im tired, the talking continues for a good 5-10 minutes - its NOT quiet... i really need to sleep... im exhausted and the benadryl is not blocking my ears. i call teh nurse. she comes in (with the scale, sausage fingers are back - up almost 2 lbs overnight)...
SHE was in teh otehr room admitting the patient, apologizes, says they'll try to be as quiet as possible... i ask if the lady is ok... and kind of stop myself because
1- they cant really talk about it and
2- she wouldnt be admitted if everythign was "OK"... (duh)..
on the way out the door the nurse says lets just put it this way, there will be a rose on the door soon. ??? - im confused and ask for clarification .. "fetal demise, she's only 11 weeks though"..
it doesnt matter if you are 11 weeks or 20 weeks... anytime it is hard (i've miscarried at 7-8 weeks and its horrible...)
how incredibly sad.. she's in my thoughts...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
update...
doc came and saw me this morning (730 - ugh!!) and said all looks well. i will be in here til i deliver (unless of course i get a f'ed up doc who says i am discharged..)
he said delivery would probably be next week - Sunday starts this week, so NEXT sunday's week... i reminded him im not due til 13February and he said it may be later depending on how my pressures are... ideally, i'd like to wait til the last week of January... ideally....
here - in the hospital on bed REST - vs just IN bed at home... my pressures look great... in fact, my last one was about 130/50or60... so really quite good...
soooo im sitting / laying here thinking about what i want to do ... i have a loud neighbor and doesnt help much with the rest, but hopefully she'll shush soon...
i have a few movies on my laptop and 24 does start tonight. i hope its better than the past few seasons...
thanks everyone for their thoughts & prayers ... MUCH appreciated...
Thursday, January 1, 2009
reflections of 2008
let's see if i can remember ... yikes!
January - plain and simple ... SUCKED... major issues/problems but they were worked out... still creep up every once in awhile, but nothing horrible
February - day after v-day found out i was pregnant (SURPRISE!!!), 2 days later i miscarried. plastic surgery on the 29th. changed.my.life....
March - recovering from my tuck, back to work, it sucked as much as ever. started really training for my 15K.
April - training training training ... LOL, that's all i can remember. had a couple 9 mile runs here.. gah!
May - DISNEY!!! completed my 15K, great experience. fabulous time at Disney with my family, DD had an absolute blast at all the character meals...
peed on a stick... very surprisingly, 2 lines appeared!
June - peed on more sticks, lines became darker and more pronounced.. flew to Toronto right before my birthday, ran a 5K, horrible morning sickness before/during/after the race... that was pretty much the last time i REALLY worked out during my pregnancy.
had first ultrasound (only one babe in there!) and he looks great. i've always called him a 'he', just intuition i guess...? my exhaustion and nausea continued..
told family & friends of pregnancy
July - not much going on, nausea continues. hating work even more. towards the end of july - pants stop fitting... nausea starts to subside, but massive headaches start coming daily.
have first ultrasound where he looks like a little BABY (not a speck on the screen)... so sweet!!!
August - MAJOR MAJOR issues with headaches, work sucks beyond belief. i cant stand the job nor the people... beg DH to let me quit. he, surprisingly, says OK.
September - little do my co-workers know that my last day of work will be the 15th. headaches are still there, but not every minute of every day. SEPTEMBER 15, 2008 - i retire heh. from American Airlines. i leave not telling one person goodbye (i think) cause everyone of the bitches are just that - bitches... yup, you - Treasure, Susan - and for god's sake get some clothes that MATCH, Pearla (not so much - not outwardly anyway), Sandy, Lin and Lynda - initially didnt think so but since i havent heard from her at all since i left - i know she was just a fake ass bitch as well... and most of all Sherri my 'boss' ... more like dictator than anything ... nowhere near a 'mentor' or anything...
ahem .. ok guess i needed to get that off my chest...
started staying home with DD. fun. :) challenging!!!
October - November - where the hell did the time go? headaches stopped about 17-18 weeks into pregnacy, DD was a princess for Halloween... all going well... :)
found out he really is a 'he' ... worked on names - finally decided on Joshua Kellan.
December - time is flying by. towards the end, it feels like my first trimester all over again. nausea, EXHAUSTION.... on new years eve i was informed my blood pressure is HIGH (140/101) and will be on bedrest for a few days. hopefully that will work.
January & beyond 2009 - hoping i will have a healthy family of 4 (yes, we are stopping at 2 kids). i want to start running again to drop the baby weight and the rest of my excess.
i wish everyone a happy and healthy 2009.
Monday, December 29, 2008
Things you may not know about me ....
(thanks She Smiles)
yes, it's taken me this long to work on this ...
- you can count the number of people i've slept with on one hand ... being fat and self-conscious ... not a good thing for sex.
- i thought i've been in love with 3 people
- in actuality, i've only TRULY been in love with 2 - one of them my DH and one my first...
- i've betrayed and i've been betrayed, both sides suck.
- i met my DH on the internet in 1996
- we met IRL for the first time February 21, 1998 and were married February 25, 1998.
- i really dont have a favorite color
- i love to read but rarely 'find' the time
- i LOVE to eat... im a huge sweet eater and volume eater...
- the real reason i run and work my ass off is so i can eat more.
- i tend to lose my temper and fly off the handle... i tend to scream and shout and then feel horrible.
- i jump to conclusions without rationally thinking - well i guess that would be the definition of jumping to conclusions **eyeroll**
- i am becoming more and more computer illiterate... even simple things that i could once do (registry edits, etc...) escape me...
- i cannot STAND bell peppers - green/red/yellow whatever ... they literally make me gag
- i've met Tori Amos back stage twice and bawled thru both experiences
- i have a plan to lose the weight after DS is born but am petrified that i wont follow it and will end up huge again.
- DH and i adopted DD from China in February 2005
- im concerned that somehow i will love DS more than DD because he's "mine"... irrational i know, but it still scares the crap out of me
OMG ... how can i forget this one???
- i LOVE sex with DH - - right now cannot.get.enough....
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
today...
today's my DH's birthday ... i wonder if either his parents or mine will call to wish him a happy birthday? **eyeroll**
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
finally remembered the title
you cant find they lyrics if you cant remember the title of the song.... preggo brain at it again.
Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Sunday, November 9, 2008
blahhhh
442 and i cant sleep ... we keep a fan on in the bedroom as a 'noise detractor' of sorts... (barking dogs - neighbors, snoring dogs - ours, snoring spouse, etc...) well i woke up and literally coudl not breathe through my nose... stupid fan wasnt even pointed towards me ... almost an hour after i turned off the fan and i still cant freaking breathe... of course as soon as i turned off the fan, neighbor dog started barking...
so now i'm awake. fun times...
no - not really
Thursday, October 9, 2008
so yeah, it's been two years!!
holy crap!!
160 pounds... i lost my DH... lol...
in celebration of my bandiversary, my band decided to be nice to me ... we went to Nagoya... it's a Japanese restaurant where they cook at your table. i had scallops (3), shrimp (a couple) and some yummie yummie steak and it was perfect. oh i also have some carrot cake in the fridge... yummie! LOVE LOVE LOVE carrot cake .. cream cheese icing... oh dear!!
it was a really great day... my daughter and i had an absolute blast during the day and it was just perfect. life is grand! :)
my DH took a pic of the table at dinner tonight....
Thursday, October 2, 2008
more on 123 magic...
all i can say is WOW, holy crap it works!
its a book that has brought peace to our house. DD (she's 4 going on 15) is very .... hmmm, strong willed ... yeah, that's a great description...
i always used to count, but it was to 5 and i would get SO frustrated and angry... with the help of this book, i count to three ... the emotion is taken out of it ... we've been working on it for a week and i've yet to reach 'three'... there have been a few serious offenses that are automatic time out (she jumps on our dog - tries to 'ride' him, smacks a dog, etc...) but that's the only time outs she's served... it used to be at least 2 times a day and sometimes they would last forever due to her fighting it....
sooooo, if you have someone 2-12, i highly recommend this book... even if your children are 'little angels'... i think most parents will find something in this book.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
if i lived in Australia...
i SHOULD be awake at this time... but i'm not there (hi She & Chickie)...
this f'ing sucks.
but i am sitting here yawning finally so i guess its time to go back to bed... we have a big day planned if DD cooperates this morning... we're going to the Z-O-O ... spelled of course cause if she DOESNT cooperate, i dont want to hear it all day long...
Friday, September 12, 2008
i work with bitches...
since i gave my 2 weeks notice at work, the 2 women (little girls actually *eyeroll*) have not said a word to me... they are pissed at me cause i quit right before the real busy time at work (our ONE busy time a month...) heh... tough crap. i couldnt handle it again ...
they are just making my decision soooo much easier ...
of course, one of them was printing something out that didnt work (she didnt paste special picture something or other)... it printed black instead of the picture... she WANTS to ask me how to fix it but hasnt yet... not sure if i'll remember how to do it anyway... yeah, imabitch too...
Thursday, September 11, 2008
so where were you?
7 years ago today.. even though its so difficult to remember, we MUST remember and not let it happen again.
when the first plane hit, i was on my way to work. i had no clue it had even happened. my work had pulled a TV into the lobby and i saw the second plane hit as i entered the building.
i was working for TWA (Trans World Airlines) who had recently been purchased by American Airlines - you know - flights 11 and 77.
incredibly tragic. so so so SO tragic. i hope the victim's families are dealing with this. i cannot even fathom what they are going through.
it's just so sad.
ummm, what time is it??
my body certainly doesnt think it's bed time...
this sucks!! woke up about 1245 to go pee and have been awake ever since...
DH cant sleep either....
i've been on vacation from work for the past 2 days and tomorrow i have to go back, im thinking that's a contributing factor.... only 3 more work days. tomorrow is going to be boring as all hell... but i have 3 movies (footloose, pretty in pink & breakfast club) on my iPhone so that'll kill about 6 hours. at least friday morning should be kinda busy and monday will (hopefully) be a quick day cause i have my 'big' ultrasound that morning... and it's one of the 4 busy days of the month.... AND my last day! yay!!! !!!!!! !!!!!!!
ok, i need to finish synching my iphone then try to get back to sleep...
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
oh yeah... i did email my 'sister'
hi (sister's name)
I'm going to pass, but (DD) would love to be in the wedding. Keep us posted.
thanks for thinking of us.
that was 04Sept ... havent heard from her since... **eyeroll**
Saturday, July 12, 2008
ok ok ... so we caved ....
new 3G iPhone ... we only waited in line about 20-25 minutes...
DH waited in line a couple hours yesterday, but had to walk away empty handed ... :(
but we have one now ... yay... it holds SOOO much more ... i can have several movies (for when i'm bored at work) and lots of songs ..
yay!!
