10May08 training

its really humid here so i went to 24 Hour Fitness. bleck.

first is just plain walk/running
second is hills up to 9.0% incline
i also did a mile on the elliptical

Minnie Kiss... ;)

teeee heeee....

on a side note, DD freaked when i went to get this picture taken .. complete and total freak out ... after all ... it's all about her... 99.9999% of the time it is, but this one moment was about me ... ;)

09May08 work out

first post race run/walk.

damn i feel old (and SLOW)....

ok - I suck

didnt get up early enough to run...

going to breakfast, Magic Kingdom then airport...

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wow - vacation almost over

tonight is our last night here, we're packed up and pretty much ready
to go.

we went to Epcot tonight for dinner (fish & chips) and fireworks.
both were good.

tomorrow is a character breakfast with Mary Poppins (?), Alice/Mad
Hatter & Pooh & friends... yes, Disney is all about food... haven't
even thought about stepping on a scale either.. I've hit 10,000 steps
or more each day except yesterday and that was close.

I bought a few t shirts (most were size Large!!) they are a tad snug
for me to wear right now, but 10-15 pounds gone, they should look great!

debating on whether I wanna run tomorrow. the resort here is VERY
hilly and I loathe hills... but a mile or two won't kill me.. we'll
see how late I'm up.
g'nite.

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chocolate martinis are dangerous..

but yummie!!!!

wiped out...

seriously... WDW has me beat!!!

I feel so old, at least I'm getting a salad for lunch (bacon with
bfast though...) a balance of sorts I guess...

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steps yesterday

holy crap - lots of typos

sorry ... posted from my iPhone .. may go back and fix later.

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race & post race report .. LONG!!

we started at Animal Kingdom's parking lot. I placed myself at the
front of the 13:01-15:00 min mile pace group. the last official
'racing' group. behind that were the walkers. even though I would
mostly walk, I didnt want to be in the LAST group.. easier to get
swept up for not keeping pace. the requirement was a 15:00 minute mile.

there was 1 wheelchair racer. it was actually quite sad. they
introduced her and said that she basically hopes to just be alive when
the Princess 1/2 marathon comes up in March... :( she started about
5 minutes earlier than the rest of us.

then the guest of honor came out (minnie mouse) and counted down from
10, each number getting a firework... it was pretty cool.

then we were off! :) mile 1 was pretty congested and I didnt even
cross the starting line until about 2-3 minutes past the official start.

mile 1 was at the end of the parking lot, pretty boring... OK - very
boring.. but I had my nervous energy and had a great average pace of
under 14:00/mile.

mile 2 came down the road and I got a snapshot of the mile marker. my
initial intention was to take a pic of every mile marker, but 1st came
up on me & I didnt want to completely stop and break pace. mile 2 was
just along the road to animal kingdom. they closed the road for us
which was pretty cool. there was a slight hill here I think. I
sprinted about 4 times this mile, one being down hill ;) i did take a few more pictures of the mile markers, but most i did not cause i didnt want to stop and break pace.

now comes mile 3... after going up and down some overpasses (2 of them - two too
many IMO) it was the boring, lonely stretch of the race. mile 3-4 is
basically a very long U... go down one side then up the other.. so
you see the people ahead of you basically coming back at you.. really
difficult
to explain, sorry... this was probably the toughest part of the race
for me, it just seemed never-ending... *ugh*

this is where I met my pace buddy.. we had been passing each other
the entire time so far.. she came up behind me and said she knew if
she could keep up with me she'd be fine... that felt pretty good... ;)

miles 4-5 was up a slight hill ('on ramp') leading to Hollywood
Studios.. we basically started in the 'backstage' area and went
through 'costuming' (Garmin lost signal there - it was really dark in
there so I didnt wanna run anyway)... after the Costuming tunnel, it
was mile 6... yay!

mile 6, inside Hollywood Studios park.. I've never been there so I
dunno what its like, but we were in New York.. I saw delis and a
subway stop, pretty cool, but I wasn't paying too much attention, I
just wanted to keep going and finish. we exited HS and went to the
resort lake.

mile 6 seemed to be a LONG stretch. at least it was pretty. :)
there were people at the resorts just waking up and on their decks
cheering us on, it was really cool... I had about 1.5 handfulls of
jelly beans for a sugar boost here.. really the only thing i consumed
all race.. I had a little water here and there, but didnt want to
have to stop to pee. mostly just grabbed a water, rinsed out my mouth
and spit the water out..

we finally hit mile 7. this part was really tough on my feet. a
portion of it was 'the Boardwalk' resort and it had a wooden deck...
VERY hard on the toes and ankles, but I knew that mile 8 was Epcot and that would
only be about a mile after that...

we entered Epcot through a private cast member entrance and were
backstage for awhile - probably 1/4 to 1/2 mile then through the gates
and good god I was in England ... 8 mile market came up ... up a
stupid bridge, down the wonderful ;) bridge, up a slight hill and I
see the Eiffel Tower.. I took about 5-6 pics cause I wasn't sure I
was getting it and didnt want to stop & check... my pace had actually
slowed quite a bit towards the end and I didnt want it getting
slower. I saw the 'ball' across the lake and started to believe I can
actually do it. holy crap I'm gunna finish this (yup, I had doubts)..

pass other countries - Japan, Germany, USA, etc... took a few
pics... holy crap, Mexico, last country... zipped (HA!!) to a
backstage area and saw where they board dogs (NO idea why this stuck in my mind)
.... everyone kept
telling me almost there... last person said almost there I told her
I've been hearing that for the past 3 miles, she grinned and said just
around the corner.. REALLY???! ...really..

holy shit - I see the finish line.. to be honest, when I hit Epcot
and realized I can so do it, I did get a tad teary - eyed.... now
seeing the finish line... whoa! walking very briskly... finally
break into a sprint and cross the finish line.. see DH & DD...
YAY!!!!!

bawling now - a happy bawling... :) I get the medal and have my pic
taken.. grab a banana which my DD eats 1/2 of, and walk to the car -
great - more walking....

get ready to go to hotel, DH makes a wrong turn (darn) and we end up
near a Starbucks... venti iced Chai latte skim milk no ice
please... YUMMMMMMMM

we go to hotel after, rest a bit. I shower and change then back to
Epcot for food & shopping.

what a great day..

thoughts:
- the support was AMAZING. there were cast members all thru the race
encouraging us.. that was awsome...

- I was expecting more characters ... seriously. I saw 3 not
including minnie at the start.

- I didnt even see minnie at the end .. a tad bummed about that, but
oh well... I'm going to magic kingdom tomorrow with my medal... ;)

- the 'Princess' half marathon... WHY! is it scheduled in March - only
2 months after the other Disney marathons???! grrrrr.

- fabulous time... it truly was amazing. very challenging, but I did
it... I f'ing did it!

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oh shit...

I'm beat
almost 30,000 steps today.
on our way back from Epcot, hotel, maybe pool...

all I know is that I have to ice my feet again. SO sore. blisters
on my blisters.

Tigger was very impressed with my medal, although the pic DH got looks
like he's just staring at my boobs.. LOL.

Christine
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some pictures

just a few pics - our net connection is SOOOOOOO slow

dogs on ice...

;)

the bling

did it!!

2 miles

here we go....

01May08 work out

Nike+ data

i somehow stopped my workout mid-way through it, so i have 2 different graphs. my 'fastest' yet, although i wasnt really trying ...

DH and i had a chat last night

ok ... so i've been eating crap lately (although the past 2 days have been much better - thank you ALL for your comments)...

and i've probably gained **blushing** about 7-8 pounds ... ok, not probably. i've gained 9 pounds ... how that happened, i dunno ... i didnt think i was that bad, but i guess i was...

you can really tell i've gained weight ... even in my stomach area *which i thought wasnt supposed to happen, but it has - even in the lower stomach area :( *

i was trying on some shorts/skorts for Disney next week and my wonderful DH looked and said "not so much" ... 8***( what do you mean NOT SO MUCH (yes, i was pissed ...) he asked if i'd rather him lie to me and say it looks great.

this was just with the skorts on (no shirt or a compression garment) so i put on the shirt and he said it was better ... the shitty thing is - it was snug and it was untucked... i've been so proud that i've been able to tuck my shirts in, now i cant even do that.

so, i was just upset (with myself, not DH) and went to bed to watch Dead Like Me (great show, btw)... he came in read... when i was finished, he turned out the light and i dont even remember how i started but i basically said something about my weight and that im going to gain it all back ... he was really supportive but then he decided i needed something stronger ... he was just as angry at the situation as i was...

told me all the things i really needed to hear, let me cry on his shoulder but then told me i gotta get my ass moving again (my words not his)... im healed from the PS and i need to kick it into high gear if i even want to finish Minnie (i havent exercised since i dunno how long ago)... maybe my 9 miler the sunday before last... that is not the way to train for a 15K race.

so im going to put in a few miles after work today, then take a short walk tomorrow morning (i have the day off work).

then the Minnie 15K is Sunday, take a couple days off then i want to average 10-15 miles a week until i start training for Chicago at the end of May.

30April08 training

from Nike+


not sure what my plan is for tomorrow. if i do anything, it will not be far, maybe a few times around the block.

30April08 food

breakfast

1/2 cup Kashi Cinnamon Harvest cereal

1/2 cup milk

initially planned for 1.5 cup cereal, 10 oz milk but my DB(oss) called me in

snack
2 wafers iSS Oh Yeah bars

lunch

fajita chicken weight watchers - 5 points (review posted below)

snack

WW Chocolate Muffin

post - run drink
1/2 bottle cherry pomegranate Naked drink - - YUMMIE!!

dinner

went out cause i was tired and didnt wanna cook ;)
Applebees - yeah, not my first choice but i know they have points on their menu ...
Onion Soup Au Gratin
Cajun lime tilapia with fruit my very DD ate

28.5 points consumed today. on plan day!! :)

oh yeah - TOM is here ... im soooo excited. not.

food addict ... um, yup that would be me!

i posted this earlier on LBT... basically the thread is about food addictions. i will not repost the original post's post, but it basically said that yup, she is addicted and how the hell does she fix it?

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please know that you are far from alone. even being banded, losing 150ish pounds (with lots more to go), i still have a severe food addiction. severe food addiction. right now i am struggling more than i have in a long time, not sure exactly what or why it is, but its happening in a huge way right now. i have been 'food sober' for 2 days now, actually not even that - i bought jellie bellies for my upcoming race yesterday and had a few handfulls - but i was within my WW points range so lets so it was an 'ok' day. not great, but certainly could have been a ton worse.

there are even days when i work against my band. the very tool that i had installed to help me - i defy. eating eating eating ... and not always the model bandster and going on liquids after i pb... i eat something until i have to pb, make some room and then eat some more. doesnt sound like a very 'successful bandster'... granted i think that's happened 1 maybe 2 times in 17 months, but its happened.

life as i knew it pretty much turned upside down earlier this year, not excusing it, cause it is what it is. but, that didnt help matters.

i was one of the lucky ones who was so fat that my surgeon didnt require anything. no sleep apnea testing, no nutritional counseling, no psychological counseling... all i had to do was have my ticker checked to make sure i wasnt goign to croak on the table and i think i had some blood drawn.

i like jack's perspective, but its not eating that im addicted to ... eating i dunno - insert something incredibly good for you - SOY - eating soy anything (bleck btw) is incredibly different from eating something really good tasting (to me)... it doesnt even have to be 'bad' for me, i dunno ... chicken thigh (breast too tough)... i just cant eat anything... im a relatively picky eater - always have been - too bad the band didnt help in that area....

PMS for me is a bitch. thankfully, i get so tight right before that i can do liquids only for a day or so... but a shake goes down just fine thank you very much

so yeah, do i have a point? i dunno ... just know that you are not alone out there... im literally taking it one meal at a time right now.

Review - WW Fajita Chicken Supreme

Fajita Chicken Supreme.

hello ... WEIGHT WATCHERS, not everyone likes/wants green peppers in every fucking meal ...

seriously!

but **sigh** it tasted pretty good (after i picked out the peppers).. had a great mexican flavor. will probably satisfy a Mx craving. ;)

will get again ..

Review - WW Orange Sesame Chicken

pretty tasty.

small portion of chicken and it had green peppers in it (cant stand peppers... bleck!)
but it was good, had a strong orange flavor to it.

i'd order it again.

dammit... full disclosure...

i have no fucking clue what is going on with me.

eating like a fucking pig ... my restriction is so fucking wonky lately. some days, i PB on my shake at breakfast, some days, i can eat 1/2 - 2/3 breakfast sandwich... (of which i shove the rest in my mouth cause the fucking head hunger) and then PB the rest of it up.

fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck... fuckity fuck

i mean seriously. my restriction is nothing right now and my discipline is nothing what so ever...
i mean really, if i had the discipline, i wouldnt fucking need a lap band, right?

and all of this would be fine and dandy if i was working out, but the entire weekend, what did i do? the Race for the Cure ... 5K ... due to how crowded it was, it took us just over an hour to complete.

sooooo, today's menu (so far):
breakfast:
sausage egg & cheese croissant from Jack In The Box (580 cals, thank you very much...)

snack(s):
baby ruth bar
some other chocolate bar (blocking out the name???)

lunch:
2 large chilis from Wendys
lots of crackers

snack:
3 snack sized mr. goodbars

WHAT.THE.FREAKING.FREAKY.FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

fuck.

seriously.
fuck..

:(

woke up...

to a torrential downpour...

did not get my miles in...

I suck.

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my practice 15K

its planned for tomorrow. hopefully it wont rain.
outlined in red...

it really doenst look that long but damn ... thats a long run/walk...

race for the cure..

on our way to race for the cure...

really early... :(

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ugh..... jury duty tomorrow

SO not looking forward to this ...

WOW... :)

im wearing a t-shirt from some sort of 5K DH & I did last year... we both got a shirt... turns out i am wearing HIS shirt. i thought it was mine (i have the exact same one, except its size XL or XXL ....) teeeee heeee ...

oh, by the way - his is a LARGE ... GAHHHHHHH!

i really hate working with women ...

our group is ALL women and the 'cattiness' is just unbearable most times ...

-talking behind other's backs
- giggling like little school girls (we're talking 50+ year olds here)

they are supposed to be 'good Christian women' ... doesnt sound too christian like to me... they pick on this one woman all the time ... granted, the woman is a total pain in the ass, but they are just being bitches...

so Danika Patrick wins her first race....

... and she freaking CRIES... way to represent women ...

no, im not a IRL follower (DH is though) but geesh!!! quit the waterworks already!

9.1x miles and nothing to show for it...

im so f'ing ticked ... my ipod crapped out mid-walk this morning. Nike+ appeared to be logging, but i went to synch and it didnt work. the walk was lost.

even my wonderfully geek DH couldnt figure it out...

all i remember is was 9.1something miles, 2hours 30 mins 16:03 pace... its my fastest, but still not fast enough for the minnie marathon. i just dont want to get swept.

i also burned over 1600 cals.... and of course, my band is SUPER tight right now and i cant eat anything. i tried some pasta and after the 3rd bite, not so much... so im hungry but not... there are times when i just love my band... not so much.

so no cool Nike+ graph, but i do have my body bugg steps to show ..

nasty weather!!

icky weather...

sigh

sabotage
noun
1.
a deliberate act of destruction or disruption in which equipment is damaged
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/sabotage

what dictionary.com is missing is this:


yup, i suck today....

16 April 08 walk

what a crappy walk... DH came with me and i really didnt want to run and push myself with him ... ???? dunno why. i have NO IDEA what that huge spike was. i did run twice, maybe that was one of the times. who knows?

Nike+ graph

weigh in

1.8 pounds last week, 10 pounds in 2 weeks
WW not so bad...

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grrrrrrrr

SO HUNGRY...

i want to eat eat eat eat eat ... and eat some more.

at this point i have 9 points remaining for my dinner which should be enough, but tomorrow is weigh in day so i dont want to stuff myself like a flipping pig... guess i'll have a huge salad with dinner tonight, maybe some of that Progresso soup (which claims its zero points, but its not...)

ice on the shins...

well i wasnt even a mile into my walk and my shins started aching...

dammit.

my pace was SLOW.. turtles were passing me.. yes, it was that bad.
Nike+ graph

that f'ing sucked

3.56 shitty miles...

I was SLOW... 16:24 min mile average... suck suck suck

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holy crap - 2 year compare

April 06 - April 08

I fucking did it...

5.96 miles...
I feel GREAT!!!
what a rush!

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5.7 miles planned today...

walking from 24 hour fitness to my house... oh dear!!!!

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Fridays lunch

turkey something ... it was REALLY good.

f i am so fing tired ...

i am so ready to go to bed ... its a whopping 9:00 ... damn.

wow...

so tired...

one not so good thing about WW

it really stresses that you need to get in your allotted points (30 for me right now) and i find myself at the end of the night (like now) with only 22ish points consumed ...

soooo ... i go for the garbage (getting ready to eat WW ice cream right now)... yes, it could be worse, but i dunno...

i think i may try this week with not as many points and see what happens...

damn...

wooo hooo

a "wow" moment ... i look flat ... sooo weird, the pants are loose in the hips, snug in the waist (14s!!!)

2.1 miles Tuesday

it was a very nice work out... not too tough, but i pushed myself. going to try to walk 3 miles today.

holy crap!

i lost 8.2 pounds last week. my first week on weight watchers and i lost 8 pounds!

not bad! :)

i even ate chocolate yesterday (real chocolate) and was within my points level.

hmm... cool!

oh crap ... i lost an eating point with this weight loss ...

EWWWWW!!

thigh skin...

scar pics - 38 days post op

definately not the most flattering pics ... i was leaning and all contorted, my belly looks 10 months preggers in that first pic... i dunno if it really looks that bad or what ... **cry**

Review - WW Swedish Meatballs

ummm. not so much.... im eating it cause i dont have anything else and i'm pretty hungry but i will not be getting this again.

Review - Kraft Light Three Cheese Ranch

very tasty. 2 points for 2 TBSP.

will buy again.

review - Yoplait Fiber One Key Lime Pie Yogurt

mmmmmm ... tasty.
it has one point, but its REALLY small. like so small they dont tell you on the container (it is a pack of 6) how many ounces it is.

DH and I are guessing about 3... but hey, if i want something sweet and tangy, this will do.

thumbs up.

38 days post op - front view

here are my 38 day post op pics.

still not happy with the swelling, but it is going down at least. you can even see a little waist definition (even though it is still about 5 inches more than my pre-op)

38 days post op - side view

38 days post op - rear view

ok... how can this only be 3 points??

Weight Watchers Shrimp Marinara... tastes really good. the shrimp are a tad rubbery, but i think i over-nuked it... im about 2/3 finished and quite full... yum... will get this again

new swim suit....

not HORRIBLE, but the thighs have GOTTA be fixed ... holy loose skin!!

35,000 feet up...

IF ONLY

after my shower this morning, I was drying off and looked in the
mirror...

wow, what a difference, less swelling in the lower part, flat even..

then I think y'know, I'd look REALLY good, if only I didnt have
swelling in my upper tummy area..

I need to stop that crap! diet and exercise will help my 'pouch', so
just get with the program and work on it..

and stop the 'if onlys'... all they do is discourage..

soooooo...

I look really good this morning.

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room to spare!!!

going home for the weekend.

Chicken / Spinach dip - review

based upon several recommendations from people on LBT, i bought some Spinach dip (in a jar with the dips) and some canned chicken.

mixed the two (1 large can chicken & 3 TBSP of the dip) and divided it up. heated it at 425 for about 10 minutes. i topped it with a nice sprinkle of parm cheese and melted that...

had some with 1 2/3 wasa sourdough crackers and wow, was really good. very low in points (8)

Chicken Fettucini - review

it was really quite good. the entire entree is 7 points, but i could only eat 2/3 and that is pushing it. i am quite full.

no problems with taste, texture, etc. the chicken was pretty good. not a bunch of it (maybe 5-6 small chunks) but it tasted good.

i'd buy it again.

02April planned food

b - kashi crunch & milk
snack - salad with tomatoes and cucumbers, 2T spicy ranch dressing
l - 2/3 WW Chicken Fettuccini
d - 5 oz chicken breast 1 TBSP Creamy Spinach Dip, 15 Kashi crackers
s - WW ice cream cookie dough something

29 planned points, 2 left

not sure if i can eat this much or if i'll be starving ... its TOM and oh boy....

so im biting the bullet...

i obviously need structure right now ... so ...

du du du.....

im going to do weight watchers. i registered online a few weeks ago and just havent.

sooooo, as soon as i can get my ass to the store, im going to start WW... not sure how exactly im going to do it... DH is needing VERY high calories (2800ish??) cause he's running and strength training, so its going to be a challenge. i may just survive on the frozens for lunch and who knows for dinner...

any suggestions for really good tasting frozens? i honestly think she took saline out when i got my last "fill" cause i dont feel it one bit.