oops

20 mins, not 40... tired

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happy...

19 weeks, 6 days, 23 hours 40 mins...

too tired to stay up for 20 weeks...

almost 1/2 way there... will be when I wake up...

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my lovely DD...

just told me " 'lax mamma"

(relax..)

wooooo an 18 minute mile.. LMAO

but i did get my ass to the gym.... 18:01 minute mile... i've NEVER gone that slow and going from a 13 minute to 18 minute, yeah, i'm kinda out of shape... **sigh** but it was my first time back in awhile and didnt wanna push it too much. next time, i'll go a tad faster.

my trainer saw me there and was like, wow, you really are alive... and pregnant! (yup, i'm showing) the cool thing is - i still fit in my XL workout pants... yay me!! ;)

but ... i do have to say ... Ho-Ho's are EVIL....

oh dear...

DOGGIE IS BACK!!!!!

9/23/2008 4:48:57 PM central i thought i told you to shooooo... ???

the Z-O-O

if i lived in Australia...

i SHOULD be awake at this time... but i'm not there (hi She & Chickie)...

this f'ing sucks.

but i am sitting here yawning finally so i guess its time to go back to bed... we have a big day planned if DD cooperates this morning... we're going to the Z-O-O ... spelled of course cause if she DOESNT cooperate, i dont want to hear it all day long...

dammit dammit dammit!!

i NEVER had high BP ... EVER ... even when i was humongous! i went to my regular OB appointment today .. 155/84!!!! WTF??!!

i have a follow up appt in 2 weeks for a BP check... i know hypertension is common in pregnancy, but at 19 weeks 3 days?? im not even half way there yet. i had a semi stressful morning trying to get DD ready and putting the hound up in his crate (escaped and i had to corral him back in) so i'm hoping its just some sort of fluke.... i hope cause ummm, if i have to go on any sort of bedrest, i'm screwed cause DD is with me full time now...

wide awake...

sigh
slight headache and hungry... not good at 3:25 am...

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Tigger

didn't get great pics, but he/she is measuring right on target! yay!!

it's a....

BABY!!!

*sigh* little guy/gal is stubborn & would not uncross his/her legs....

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SIGH..

my DH ran over his iPhone...

so, how was your weekend??

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how could i forget to post this???!!!

18 weeks today!!! :)

i work with bitches...

since i gave my 2 weeks notice at work, the 2 women (little girls actually *eyeroll*) have not said a word to me... they are pissed at me cause i quit right before the real busy time at work (our ONE busy time a month...) heh... tough crap. i couldnt handle it again ...

they are just making my decision soooo much easier ...

of course, one of them was printing something out that didnt work (she didnt paste special picture something or other)... it printed black instead of the picture... she WANTS to ask me how to fix it but hasnt yet... not sure if i'll remember how to do it anyway... yeah, imabitch too...

so where were you?

7 years ago today.. even though its so difficult to remember, we MUST remember and not let it happen again.

when the first plane hit, i was on my way to work. i had no clue it had even happened. my work had pulled a TV into the lobby and i saw the second plane hit as i entered the building.

i was working for TWA (Trans World Airlines) who had recently been purchased by American Airlines - you know - flights 11 and 77.

incredibly tragic. so so so SO tragic. i hope the victim's families are dealing with this. i cannot even fathom what they are going through.

it's just so sad.

ummm, what time is it??

my body certainly doesnt think it's bed time...

this sucks!! woke up about 1245 to go pee and have been awake ever since...

DH cant sleep either....

i've been on vacation from work for the past 2 days and tomorrow i have to go back, im thinking that's a contributing factor.... only 3 more work days. tomorrow is going to be boring as all hell... but i have 3 movies (footloose, pretty in pink & breakfast club) on my iPhone so that'll kill about 6 hours. at least friday morning should be kinda busy and monday will (hopefully) be a quick day cause i have my 'big' ultrasound that morning... and it's one of the 4 busy days of the month.... AND my last day! yay!!! !!!!!! !!!!!!!

ok, i need to finish synching my iphone then try to get back to sleep...

oh yeah... i did email my 'sister'

hi (sister's name)
I'm going to pass, but (DD) would love to be in the wedding. Keep us posted.

thanks for thinking of us.


that was 04Sept ... havent heard from her since... **eyeroll**

im sorry part deux...

cold stone creamery cake batter ice cream with butterfinger....

DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLL!!

i'm sorry....

who??

no additional attention needed... someone is simply an attention whore and doesnt need any more...

no additional attention needed... someone is simply an attention whore and doesnt need any more...

dearest doggi....

as in puppy ... as in 'follower' *woof* go away.

quite an interest in my blog eh??

make it such a point *i just cant ignore her cause she's an admin* whine... quit visiting. seriously... unless you really are a sadist... if you are, im sure i can come up with a few more things.

should I?

should I, shouldn't I?

hmmmm... been debating something all week.... I dunno...

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another visit??

groggi ... i'm going to think you ARE stalking me .. should i be scared?? LMAO..

07Sept08 15:50 central .... are you that bored??? if you'd like, i can publish more of the joesterizer if you'd like...

big kisses ... mmmmmmm wahhhhhhhhh!

rrrrrrribbittttt

if you're trying so hard to ignore me, why do you keep visiting?

two times already? get a freaking life.

even when I was 400+ pounds I did more than post useless posts on a
message board and visit blogs of people I STATED I wanted to ignore..

shooooo..

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nothing new...

work still sucks (7 days left!!!)

well damn, this sucks...

ok... so i went grocery shopping this afternoon...
i got everything on my list, veggies, grapes on sale (woo hoo 97 cents a pound), tomatoes and then i made the mistake of going by the bakery ... OMFG!!!!!!! there was this cake ... this CAKE ... sour cream pudding cake ... OMG OMG OMG ... it looked amazing... sooooo good... i was drooling... and it was on SALE ... how could i not get it???

i didnt bring my debit card shopping, so i had to use DH's... me having mommy brain, i completely forgot his PIN number ... 3 times... locked the stupid card... declined, declined, declined... yup - im an idiot sometimes...

so i leave the store empty handed... :( no tomatoes (been craving them)... and no cake!!!!!! gahhhhhh!!

DH was wonderful and dropped us off at home and went back with the list.. (yes, yes... including the cake). well, he didnt get the sour cream pudding cake, he got the sour cream angel food cake... **sigh** I DONT WANT ANGEL FOOD CAKE.... I WANT PUDDING CAKE (dont mess with a pregger's cravings)... i storm off to the store to exchange the stupid cake.... its now after dinner, slight rumbly in my tummy ... i cut myself a piece ... ehhhhh... not so great.... i dont dare tell this to DH ... dammit!!!!

too harsh of a response????

I have absolutely no desire to even go to your wedding much less be in your hick wedding. Oh wait, it wont be a hick wedding cause dad is paying for it.

And for you to ASS-Ume that my daughter would be in your wedding. Um, not so much…



yes, it's only a wish-response

why... why... WHY???

ok, my favorite sister (ummm, NOT) is getting married next year... she's a total bitch and only contacts me when she wants something..

well when she announced she was getting married to loser-boy (24 years old, not going to school, no job, still lives with mummie,etc) she set up a "the knot" web page. on that page she announced that my other sister (ehh, not close, but she's not a total bitch like baby sis) would be her maid of honor (not a shock, they are close) and MY very DD would be a flower girl. ummm, maybe ask me first???

that was about a month or so ago. so this morning i get an email:
i just wanted to see if you and (my DD) wanted to be in our wedding... blahblahblah...

initial reaction was to delete it. seriously! and i havent replied yet (my answer is HELL NO i will not stand up in your hick wedding) but i dont know what to do about DD... inital reaction for her is hell no as well just cause i cant stand the 'bride', but ... i should just suck it up and say yes to her.

no clue what reason i'm going to use for me not being in it. i will have delivered by then (summer wedding), i guess i could say that i dont want to leave the baby for that long ??

*reason #1 i think she's a total bitch*
a couple years ago, we were home for Thanksgiving. our flight home was about 630-700 am on a Sunday morning. my parents left for somewhere Saturday night (gone for the rest of the weekend). i asked her Saturday afternoon if she could drop us off at the airport. "I just cant do that, I have to drive home Sunday to prepare for school and i dont want to be tired while driving (3-4 hour drive)"... in other words, i dont want to get up and drive you cause i'll be sleeepy... yet she got up for day after Thanksgiving shopping at 4am Friday morning.... so we called a cab - $65 thank you very much. FINE BITCH.

she was up pounding around (she's a big girl too) until 3:30 am that morning we were leaving... so fucking much for being too tired.

i was so f'ing pissed. SOOOOOOOOO f'ing pissed, i finally told my (step)mom... i KNOW she told bitch-sis... not one word to apologize ... she's a f'ing bitch and nothing is going to change my mind...

wow ... guess i needed to vent ????

ummm, wow

i've lost 9 pounds since my last fill (07Aug)...

IF YOU THINK YOU ARE TOO TIGHT, YOU PROBABLY ARE!!!
and yup, i succumbed to a craving for lunch... McDonald's McRib ... its the only thing (besides their iced coffee) that i like. i took one bite with the bun (tempting fate, i know)... i knew it wouldnt work... but i did eat the 'meat' bunless ... yummmmmmmmmmmmmm

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

... so much for 2 weeks notice next week.

my boss came by "there will be information about the voluntary packages in the next 2 weeks"... the 'voluntary packages' would give me a severance that i just cant NOT stick around for ...

dammit dammit dammit...

but if i do get the package but have to stay more than a month or so, i dont think i'm going to accept it... and of course, if i dont get it, i'll turn in my notice 1 minute after that...

so no, I can't sleep

... so I grabbed my Doppler and was patient (unlike most times) and I
heard his heartbeat!!!!!!

I'm so freaking happy I'm crying! :)

it's a good solid 150... went up to about 153 but for the most part
stayed right at 150. of course DH is out running so he didn't get to
hear it... I did call his cell to leave a message, but doubt it could
be heard...

oh well, next time I know to be more patient!

on the band front, I'm going in for a slight unfill this afternoon,
I've been PBing a tad more than I'd like and have pretty much been on
mushies only since Sunday or so...

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cute story about my DD....

DHwas working late tonight (left 1/2 hour later than normal)... apparently DD was hungry.

she looked up at me and said "we go out to eat tonight"... i said no, there's water on the stove for spaghetti... "i dont want psgetti"... we go out to eat. this happened a few times, me adding something each time (sausages, broc & cheese)... after about the 5th time, i said well DD, when you can pay for it, we'll go out to dinner, OK? she said OK... then once again ... we go out tonight... i told her she doesnt have any money to spend.

"yes i do"...
"oh really, where?"
"in mama and dadda's room"


DH has coins on top of his dresser ... she wanted to pay for dinner with that ... :)

ok ... i want honest opinions people ...

Ayerton (air-ton) for a boy's name ... ??????????

thank you and good night...

i hope.... yet another killer headache strikes and i just took 2 tylenol PM...

on the very cool front, i heard Tigger's heartbeat today ... solidly in the 150s... YAY...

and im a bad blogger for comments.... sorry guys... :( i suck but really, the head is about to explode...

omg...

wanna laugh until you cry??

http://mom-101.blogspot.com/2008/08/50-100-calories-hour-or-about-4.html

its not only the post, but the comments.... i dread the day.

off to my OB appointment....

have I mentioned lately

how much I loathe my f'ing job??

well, it's true.. detest is too nice of a word.. I had the worst bid
run of my career and it f'ing sucked..

can't wait til I'm outta there!!

grrrrr

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I *heart* Tylenol PM

that is all....

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i really..

fucking hate people who aren't banded who (think they)"know it all"...

tigger!! :)

just wanna say

i f'ing hate my job and really cannot stand my co-workers... why i took this job in the first place (other than the huge promotion and more money) is unknown to me...

weird hunger...

*posting on LBT too*

so I did get a fill a few days ago and it does seem to help the
CONSTANT hunger I've had with this pregnancy.. weird thing is - I'll
eat dinner (1/2 piece tilapia and 3 bites broc), be satisfied - full
even... then 2 hours later be STARVING... enuff to wanna chew my
left arm off... so at 9:00 last night I'm eating shredded BBQ
chicken.. I literally take 3-4 small bites - done.. not 'full', but
good.. I just don't understand how I go from 1 extreme to the other
SO quickly.

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i loathe my co-workers

ok ... i asked my 'neighbor' if she watched Army Wives last night and immediately said that i had not... snoopy chick (other neighbor) came by, oh i havent watched it in a few episodes, and they proceed to talk about it including last night's show...

bitches!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

oh dear i am sooo ticked at DH (d does not mean dear right now)...

first of all he was up really late watching the olympics ... fine and dandy... well he comes to bed and shines his phone right in my eyes ... i know it wasnt intentional, but geesh...

then he cant sleep ... so he's out in the living room, sending me emails ... ummm ... they go right to my iPhone... i get an alert when i get an email... 2am... not a good thing.

then at 3am, for some reason, his phone alarm goes off... why he would set an alarm for 3am, i have no idea... he's not in the room... he's lucky he didnt come back to it in pieces on the floor...

he comes to bed about 4-430 and he's receiving some sort of text message alerts...
FINALLY, he's in the shower getting ready... i have another 8 precious minutes of sleep in my 'snooze' and his freaking alarm goes off again.

so needless to say, i'm really tired and in a really fowl mood.

I know...

no updates... sorry.

I'm gaining weight, doc said not to worry about it, but I am...

headaches are debilitating.. my DD seems to have forgotten how to be
quiet for 10-15 mins...

latest ultrasound looked good, but no really good pictures. :( we
did get it videotaped (VHS-who has a VCR any more??) so when we
convert it, I'll post a small video.

off to try to get rid of this doozy of a headache...

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updated ultrasound picture

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WIDE awake

have been for about an hour or so...

was hungry, so I drank some milk... now I'm hungry and have a horrid
taste in my mouth... this sucks.

SOOOOOO much on my mind, ijust need to stop thinking and get some
sleep... easier said than done though..

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damn!!

GAHHHHH!!

WIDE awake

3:37 in the morning and I'm wide awake....

gunna be a GREAT day.. not

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*sigh*

DH's comment...

"PJ pants getting a bit tight, huh?"
I told him that's NOT an effective way to get into my pants...

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gahhhhhh!!!

DH is insisting on watching MLS (Soccer) ... bleck

ok ok ... so we caved ....

new 3G iPhone ... we only waited in line about 20-25 minutes...

DH waited in line a couple hours yesterday, but had to walk away empty handed ... :(

but we have one now ... yay... it holds SOOO much more ... i can have several movies (for when i'm bored at work) and lots of songs ..

yay!!

pssstt.... hey 'joiful'

i never said i was perfect...

yup, i've eaten things i shouldnt have - had a Sonic breakfast sandwich today in fact, but i didnt want to fuck up my band and eat a big mac 4 days after surgery...

too nauseated to update...

ok, too nauseated to do much except bitch at people on LBT....

Christine
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Wall-E

date night with DH

GREAT movie!!! :)

Christine
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authentic Chinese

makes me hurl... literally. :(

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*sigh*

ok
heat, fatigue, a jumping daughter, obnoxious music does not a happy
momma to be make..

we are waiting for fireworks to start.. weve been here 80 minutes...
only 15 more to go... THANK GOD... cause if I dont get relief soon,
someones gunna get hurt!

oh, and the bathroom didnt have any TP.. grrrrrr

Christine
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meltdown of sorts...

ok ... so i have gained maybe - MAYBE - 2 pounds total since i found out i was pregnant a little over a month ago. it's fluctuating between losing 4 and gaining 1.5...

i've already got a belly ...

i was sitting on the couch last night and just looked down and started crying ... im only 8 weeks (almost) pregnant... im not supposed to have a belly yet... DH calmed me down, but its still scary to think what im going to look like at 20/30/40 weeks!!!

'cuter' pictures...

the baby is below the arrow in the last 2 pics

its a baby!!! :)

insert title here...

im slacking so horribly bad and good for me food literally makes me nauseated but a pop tart is great. despite that im not eating much and have lost a little bit.

im just exhausted a lot... A LOT... A LOT ..

so im home with DD with the chicken pox. i had them when i was young and my doctor said that i should be fine.

DH's boss actually wants their child exposed to THE POX so DD is going to stay with them tomorrow while we go in for the ultra sound... i was getting bummed cause i didnt think DH would be able to come, but he can.

YAY!!

and WHY am i craving Toaster Pastry things????????? grrrrrr

pretty in pink.... ;)

well fuck a duck...

my DD has chicken pox....

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ok, so..

none of my clothes fit... at least none of my pants/shorts fit...

now granted, they were 14s and 'fit' ... aka snug but I looked good
enuff to go out in public ... they fit at Disney early May and I've
dropped about 12-14 pounds since then...

but my belly.... it honestly looks like I have a baby bump
already... I've been told its 'just bloat', and by the time the bloat
is gone, the true baby bump will be there!! teeee heee heee!!! :)

btw - dammit, I still want my roast!!!!!! grrrrrrr.

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OMG - I SO have mommy brain

I was so excited... I've been craving a roast with onions and
mushrooms for days now...

put it in the crockpot, yes I turned it on, BUT I forgot to set the
timer for the correct time... I come home from work, expecting to
smell a delicious roast... nothing... I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO bummed... :(

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just wanted to say thanks...

I'm beat so I am currently sucking on responding to comments on my
blog, PMs from LBT and regular emails...

I'm sorry... :(

its 935 on a Saturday night and I'm going to bed...

I did want to sincerely thank everyone for their thoughts and
prayers... they are GREATLY appreciated..

c
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still 'morning' (ha!) sick..

yay..

pleasantly nauseated,
LJM...

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1/2 unfilled...

without fleuro... (sp??)
pretty painless..

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backache...

:(
all previous miscarriages started with a nasty backache...

thoughts & prayers please...

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ultrasound...

i have my first ultra sound at my first office visit which is a week from today!!!

GAHHHHHHHHH!!!! how am i going to wait another week????!!!

i stand corrected...

17,448!!!

little to no appetite. but when i want something, i WANT it...

fatigue has set in so horribly horribly bad, all i want to do is sleep.

hCG count

17,000

up significantly. not the 20,000 that i was hoping for, but its up a bunch. YAY!

i was actually kinda worried cause the nurse didnt call - it was my Doctor... i was like OH NO... but its good. its really good.

blood drawn...

now I wait. (I'm)patiently..

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had a dream..

I was bleeding... hopefully it will remain JUST a nightmare...

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ok ok OK.....

FINE!

 

ive scheduled a slight unfill for this afternoon.  i guess when you yack up breakfast (fruit), yack up lunch (3 bites of a chicken sandwich) and just generally wanna yack, an unfill isnt a bad idea.

 

im going to a new place, they do not do anything under x-ray which to me is important cause of my baby bean...

 

im weak from yacking up so much, im tired from not sleeping well (hello, freaking 103 outside yesterday!!!) and im just plain bitchy, well - cause i can be...

 

i so dont want to be at work, i SO want to quit but unfortunately, that's not gunna happen until we win the lottery and you know that saying "cant win if you dont play" ... that would be us.

 

 

the non-update update...

no new hCG results to post and I was good and didnt go after work
today..

I am going to go Wednesday after work. i figure my hCG should be at
least 15,000 (ideally 20+, but that size of an increase would make me
"ok", no, not great... I will then call my OB's nurse for her opinion.

hm... started typing this and forgot about it... SOOOOO tired. 'nite

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seriously...

it is 96 degrees inside my house...

yeah, A/C is broken...

Christine
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jambalaya recipe

Rice, Shrimp & Chicken Jambalaya

serves many

2 tbsp oil

1 lb shrimp – fresh

4 skinless boneless chicken breasts

1 lb spicy cooked sausage (Summer sausage)

6 oz ham - cubed

2 celery stalks – chopped

3 garlic cloves – minced

2 cups chicken broth

1 cup canned crushed tomatoes

1 tsp cayenne pepper

¼ tsp dried thyme

sprinkle Italian parsley

1 bay leaf

1 ½ cups rice

heat oil in large pot

add chicken chunks and sausage slices, cook until brown (5 mins)

stir in ham cubes, cook 5 mins longer

add all remaining ingredients EXCEPT RICE AND SHRIMP, bring to a boil, stir well

stir rice, season to taste

when liquid returns to boil, reduce heat cover pan tightly

simmer 10 mins

remove pan from heat, QUICKLY add raw shrimp to top, quickly replace lid and set aside for 20 mins to let rice and shrimp cook

i usually only use 3 meats (shrimp, sausage, shrimp)

oh dear - MAJOR restriction

not good.. calling tomorrow to have them give me an unfill.

lunch was 1/2 a grilled cheese sandwich - SUPER FULL.. uncomfortably
so. snack, 1/4 of a medium peach, so full it hurts to breathe.. SOOO
not good.

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hCG levels

first test on 10June was 3059
second test - 12June was 5430

soooo, the numbers are going up. not doubling like they 'should', but going up a nice 'respectable' rate.

im really really trying not to worry.

really i am...

ok - i need to chill the F out ....

i posted a freak out that i was probably losing and some wonderful woman gave me a great link about hCG (heaven forbid i do my own research and just rely on 1 internet source)

* 5 weeks LMP: 18 - 7,340 mIU/ml
* 6 weeks LMP: 1,080 - 56,500 mIU/ml
* 7 - 8 weeks LMP: 7, 650 - 229,000 mIU/ml

at the time of the test i was 5weeks 6days... my hCG was 3059.... so well within the range that the American Pregnancy Association (whoda thunk there was an association??) says is OK.

" Caution must be used in making too much of hCG numbers. A normal pregnancy may have low hCG levels and result in a perfectly healthy baby. The results from an ultrasound after 5 - 6 weeks gestation are much more accurate than using hCG numbers."

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpregnancy/hcglevels.html

sooooo... im going to TRY to chill out and just wait until my Doctor calls tomorrow with a (HIGHER, please) number...

thanks for the fingers/etc crossed, it really means a lot to me.

LOW hCG. :(

I'm trying not to freak out.. hCG was 3059, really low for 5 weeks 6
days... its an 'OK' level for 5w0d, not great...

It doesnt look promising... :(

this sucks so much.

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+

its positive... going in for another test tomorrow... at least my GP
doesnt think I'm crazy...

she suggested coming in thurs or fri, I asked her opinion and she said
to go in thurs so I dont have to wait the weekend to make sure my hCG
levels go up..

fingers (toes, eyes, legs, arms) still crossed.... I want the hCG to
double from tues...

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what happens when Starbucks makes an oopsie?

you get 2 drinks for 1

update - ok not really

I've been exhausted .. can barely keep my eyes open.

so my OB won't see me until I am 8-10 weeks out so no appt for 2 more
weeks...

I took another home test and the test result came back faster than the
control, so that is a pretty good sign... I'm going to stay positive
with this.

so being the paranoid person I am, I went to my GP for a blood test.
results will be back by Thursday. I may go back early next week to
make sure HCG levels are rising as they should. paranoia anyone??

thank you everyone for the birthday wishes. its been relaxing (think
sleep) so far. right now DH & I are on our way out to eat without
DD!! *gasp*

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how beautiful is this??

on the flight home from Toronto. weve arrived safely, are all
exhausted. thank god Im off work tomorrow.

ok, seriously...

WHO starts a race at 9:30 in the morning?? really!?

it was hot, it was humid and there were f'ing HILLS!!! grrrrrr

despite that, I did make it in less than 45 minutes (barely).

after I proceeded to get rather violently ill... we were running late
and were just going to stop by Starbucks on the way... they werent
freaking open.. at 7:45am!!? wth? so all I had to eat before the
race was a mini muffin.. won't do that again.

after the race, we did go to bux and I got my iced chai (with no
ice)... felt better.. I guess I just needed something in me.

we picked DD up from in-laws then to the pool for 'fwimming'. then
bath and I literally crashed on the bed for 45 mins.. I'm still
beat. DH went to get a light lunch (mcd's bleck) at least their iced
coffee is good... alhough should I be drinking much caffeine??

everyone please keep your fingers crossed and if you pray, say a short
one that this pregnancy holds...

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????? 2nd test...

just took this tonight. I thought it would be a darker line by now
though...

leavin on a jet plane

going to Toronto for a long weekend ... doing a 5K while we're
there... id love to do it under 45 mins (HA HA HA) ....

remember, I'm S L O W...

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omg ... must.eat.carbs.....

apparently those 6 miles took everything and more outof me.

i did have a bowl of cereal when i got home but i was WIPED OUT... i literally couldnt get off the couch. slept for well over an hour.. it took all the energy i had to heat up some tortellini we had last night.

felling much better now and i surprisingly didnt scarf them down and no PB ... YAY!!!!

now i can actually get some stuff done.

05June08 - LONG distance day

DAMN it was long and i was so freaking slow. SOOOO freaking slow. yes, the long distance is supposed to be about 20% slower than your average, but at times, it felt like i was crawling. about mile 4-5 my feet were really getting sore... and i was just thinking oh damn, i will need to do this at least FOUR MORE TIMES in Chicago...

can i do it? fuck, i really dont know. i REALLY REALLY dont know. and i know i have about 18 more weeks of training, but fuck... i cannot imagine going even more than 10 miles. seriously.
blah...

ok....

i am SO f'ing bored here at work.

yup, i have stuff to do...

nope, no desire to do it cause it's boring work ... grrrrrrrrrrr

04June08 training

scheduled for cross training today. 30 mins at the gym. working on my schedule now, it will more than likely be about the same as Saturday.

all dressed...

nowhere to go....

.... doing laundry

who would have thought that doing laundry would be inspirational??
not me.

I reached the bottom of my pile and only had 1 shirt left to fold...
my DH's shirt. as I was folding it, I noticed how soft the Tshirt
was... how much i wanted the stupid Tshirt... I looked at the size.
Large. dammit... I do fit in his XL shirts - no problem, but Large.. not so much..

just out of curiosity (and self-torture cause I KNEW it wasn't going to fit...) I tried it on..

ladies and gentlemen, see MY 'new' shirt..

03June08 training

holy crap! awesomly amazingly wonderfully great run today...

i pushed myself - HARD... i have to admit i havent been running much. more of a fast walk. well today i decided to just suck it up and do it. so i walked ... and walked a little more (averaging about 4-ish MPH) then i ran a block... (averaging about 6-ish MPH)... then walked for a little more then ran. but this time instead of running 1 block, i ran 2 blocks ... i did this a few times and it felt great.

i then did my normal sprint from the corner of my street to my house and i freaking BOOKED it... i ran faster than i've ever gone before ... and Garmin registered TEN !!!!! MPH... holy freaking shit!

so, yeah.... it was an amazing run.

things i did differently:
wore new socks... they are really nice and i cannot remember the name of them for the life of me ... soft .. sof something ... they are extremely snug and fit like a second skin.

tied my shoes tighter... MUCH tighter. i went to Luke's (running store) Sunday and they said that may be the reason i lost my toenail. the shoe needs to be tight enough to where you cannot kick them off at the end of the run (i'm SOOO guilty of that)

wore a running skirt... yes, a skirt. it was weird at first, but after 5-10 minutes it felt good... i do however, need to get some body glide. chub rub of the thighs... **eye roll**

i did set a new pace goal for the next 30 days. last goal was 5 runs with a pace of 14:58 / minute or faster. this new goal is 5 runs with a pace of 14:49 / minute. this will be very very tough for me as i am not fast at all. but i will push myself to do it.

yay...

apparently I can be a huge bitch...

DH questions what I'm eating (quantity not quality) and I damn near
bite his head off..

sorry, I'm FUCKING HUNGRY... I joked that I probably could (not
would) eat the entire meal.. 'well I dont think you should' ...
well fuck you too. ass.

damn near ordered dessert just to spite the fucker.

I could see it if it was something HORRIBLE to eat, but it wasn't.

asshole.

sent from my iPhone ;)

thats just f'ed up...

ok ... so on August 24th, i am scheduled to go 16 miles.... my DH is currently looking to run a half ..

look what he found ...

http://hottesthalf.com/

crazy?? .. yup...
thinking about doing it? ... yup...

01June08 - training day 6

mixed feelings about this one. Garmin was pretty inconsistent. i'd be going the same pace and it would range from 15:12 min mile all the way up to 24:xx min mile!!! very frustrating. but, i cant blame it all on Garmin. i was really tired physically and my glutes were really sore. the first 2.5 miles just seemed to crawl. thankfully the last half went quicker...

i am beginning to get to know our neighborhood really well!! ;)