99%

going home tomorrow... tests look good.

Christine
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update on meeeee...

bp looks great when I'm on my sides, I'm 'allowed' to get up, use the
washroom, sit up straight (not on sides) about 20 min every few hours
(think eating, etc..)

I'm pretty bored... I am NOT the sit and do noting type and it's
driving me bonkers!! plus, I really miss DH & DD - a lot!!!

last night pretty much sucked... went to 'bed' about midnight, tossed
& turned until about 230, 4am, nurse comes in to take BP... THAT I
was ready for, what I wasn't expecting was to have to get out of bed
and on the fing scale..!! W.T.F..???!!! at 4am!! grrrrr... so I'm
up til about 6, fall asleep.. RIGHT AT 7am, blood draw... WTF
people... I'm here supposed to be RESTING... 8am food - horrid !! -
then BP, okokok, I'm up!!!

DH/DD visit for a bit, bring me a chai latte & bfast sandwich... all
is right with the world except I'm a tired & cranky bitch and DD just
ate so she has SOOOO much energy to burn... *jump jump jump*...

after lunch, I took a nap and slept longer than I had all night... it
was wonderful!!! :)

sooo... here I am, should be released tomorrow.. :)

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so I've been admitted

which I guess is better than COMMITTED, but ehh.. yeah, I'm TRYING to
be funny...

blood pressure all day has been quite high.... so at 4, I called my
doc and the nurse said go to labor & delivery NOW... *sigh* DH is
still at work, etc... I get him home, pack - just in case - and load
up iPhone with movies... all of which I've probably seen 10+ times...

off to L&D triage .. it's FULL!! wait a little bit... they see me,
lay on left side, monitor.. BP does go down, lab results look
good... woooo hooo .. I'm going home... until nurse talks with
doctor... I 'get' to stay for the weekend... just found out maybe
more.... *sigh*... if I wanted a break from DD, all I had to do was
ask DH ... ;)

soooo that's the story so far....

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HELLOOOOOOOO

looks like another early delivery

30 weeks pregnant - due to high blood pressure... scary...

i've been pretty good all day... only times i got up were to take a bath (not even a shower - i sat while bathing)... and i admit, i did stand for 5-7 minutes to put the roast in the oven... otherwise, i've been on my ass all.day.long.... driving me freaking CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!

**edited**
she did have her baby, 3lbs 9oz, 16 inches. lungs NOT mature so she is intubated ..

thoughts go out to them.

reflections of 2008

let's see if i can remember ... yikes!

January - plain and simple ... SUCKED... major issues/problems but they were worked out... still creep up every once in awhile, but nothing horrible

February - day after v-day found out i was pregnant (SURPRISE!!!), 2 days later i miscarried. plastic surgery on the 29th. changed.my.life....

March - recovering from my tuck, back to work, it sucked as much as ever. started really training for my 15K.

April - training training training ... LOL, that's all i can remember. had a couple 9 mile runs here.. gah!

May - DISNEY!!! completed my 15K, great experience. fabulous time at Disney with my family, DD had an absolute blast at all the character meals...

peed on a stick... very surprisingly, 2 lines appeared!

June - peed on more sticks, lines became darker and more pronounced.. flew to Toronto right before my birthday, ran a 5K, horrible morning sickness before/during/after the race... that was pretty much the last time i REALLY worked out during my pregnancy.

had first ultrasound (only one babe in there!) and he looks great. i've always called him a 'he', just intuition i guess...? my exhaustion and nausea continued..

told family & friends of pregnancy

July - not much going on, nausea continues. hating work even more. towards the end of july - pants stop fitting... nausea starts to subside, but massive headaches start coming daily.

have first ultrasound where he looks like a little BABY (not a speck on the screen)... so sweet!!!

August - MAJOR MAJOR issues with headaches, work sucks beyond belief. i cant stand the job nor the people... beg DH to let me quit. he, surprisingly, says OK.

September - little do my co-workers know that my last day of work will be the 15th. headaches are still there, but not every minute of every day. SEPTEMBER 15, 2008 - i retire heh. from American Airlines. i leave not telling one person goodbye (i think) cause everyone of the bitches are just that - bitches... yup, you - Treasure, Susan - and for god's sake get some clothes that MATCH, Pearla (not so much - not outwardly anyway), Sandy, Lin and Lynda - initially didnt think so but since i havent heard from her at all since i left - i know she was just a fake ass bitch as well... and most of all Sherri my 'boss' ... more like dictator than anything ... nowhere near a 'mentor' or anything...

ahem .. ok guess i needed to get that off my chest...

started staying home with DD. fun. :) challenging!!!

October - November - where the hell did the time go? headaches stopped about 17-18 weeks into pregnacy, DD was a princess for Halloween... all going well... :)

found out he really is a 'he' ... worked on names - finally decided on Joshua Kellan.

December - time is flying by. towards the end, it feels like my first trimester all over again. nausea, EXHAUSTION.... on new years eve i was informed my blood pressure is HIGH (140/101) and will be on bedrest for a few days. hopefully that will work.

January & beyond 2009 - hoping i will have a healthy family of 4 (yes, we are stopping at 2 kids). i want to start running again to drop the baby weight and the rest of my excess.

i wish everyone a happy and healthy 2009.

ok I'm scared now...

my blood pressure (3 different times) was about 140/101... not good.

I have another appt Monday.. hopefully this was just a fluke of
sorts.... hopefully.

I'm on modified bed rest til then... "don't do anything"... ummm ok.

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more thoughts please...

2 more babies born 12/29...

mom was 29weeks 3days with twins. tests yesterday showed absent cord blood flow to one of the twins and one was very growth restricted

twin a - 3lb 1oz
twin b - 1lb 13oz

mom delivered via c-section, please keep them in your thoughts.

Things you may not know about me ....

(thanks She Smiles)
yes, it's taken me this long to work on this ...

- you can count the number of people i've slept with on one hand ... being fat and self-conscious ... not a good thing for sex.

- i thought i've been in love with 3 people

- in actuality, i've only TRULY been in love with 2 - one of them my DH and one my first...

- i've betrayed and i've been betrayed, both sides suck.

- i met my DH on the internet in 1996

- we met IRL for the first time February 21, 1998 and were married February 25, 1998.

- i really dont have a favorite color

- i love to read but rarely 'find' the time

- i LOVE to eat... im a huge sweet eater and volume eater...

- the real reason i run and work my ass off is so i can eat more.

- i tend to lose my temper and fly off the handle... i tend to scream and shout and then feel horrible.

- i jump to conclusions without rationally thinking - well i guess that would be the definition of jumping to conclusions **eyeroll**

- i am becoming more and more computer illiterate... even simple things that i could once do (registry edits, etc...) escape me...

- i cannot STAND bell peppers - green/red/yellow whatever ... they literally make me gag

- i've met Tori Amos back stage twice and bawled thru both experiences

- i have a plan to lose the weight after DS is born but am petrified that i wont follow it and will end up huge again.

- DH and i adopted DD from China in February 2005

- im concerned that somehow i will love DS more than DD because he's "mine"... irrational i know, but it still scares the crap out of me

OMG ... how can i forget this one???
- i LOVE sex with DH - - right now cannot.get.enough....

ok, some things are just WRONG...

DH took DD skating yesterday ... she had an absolute blast. as they were taking a short break, we saw this one woman (probably about 24-25ish) ... she weighed no less than 300 pounds... i cannot even begin to describe what this woman was wearing ... it was kinda like a tank top with spaghetti straps (the clear ones)... she had ROLLLLS hanging out of this top... and the 'muffin top' was all the way around and you could see it in all it's glory...

now now ... before you think im a complete hypocrite, i'm not... i was that big - bigger even - but i would not be caught dead in that shirt or anything close to it. i did take a picture of her at a book store, but decided against posting it... my luck, she'd belong to LBT or something... **eyeroll**

so the moral of the story is ... hell, i dunno ... dont wear white trash clothing if you are fucking huge. (ok, dont wear white trash clothing at all - especially if you are huge)...

even better than the ring i think ...

another present i received from my DH was a book ...

"Quotable Runner"....

i was thinking tonight ... damn, this man has so much faith in me, i think he has more in me than i do myself... he KNOWS i can start running again and this was his way of telling me that he will support me... even if it means me getting up at (ugh) 4am again...

words cannot describe how much i appreciate that.

thanks, Rick... ily

people are just fuct up...

this is so sad and tragic.

COVINA, Calif. – Stinging from an acrimonious divorce, a man plotting revenge against his ex-wife dressed up like Santa, went to his former in-laws' Christmas Eve party and slaughtered at least six people before killing himself hours later.

Three people were listed as missing after Bruce Pardo's rampage — his ex-wife and her parents — and it was feared their remains were among the ashes of the home, which Pardo set ablaze using a bizarre homemade device that sprayed flammable liquid.

Pardo, 45, had no criminal record and no history of violence, according to police, but he was angry following last week's settlement of his divorce after a marriage that lasted barely a year.

"It was not an amicable divorce," police Lt. Pat Buchanan said.

The massacre began when an 8-year-old girl answered Pardo's knock at the door. Pardo, carrying what appeared to be a large present, pulled out a handgun and shot her in the face, then began shooting indiscriminately as about 25 partygoers tried to flee, police said.

A 16-year-old girl was shot in the back, and a 20-year-old woman broke her ankle when she escaped by jumping from a second-story window. Those two, and the 8-year-old, remained hospitalized Christmas Day.

The gift-wrapped box Pardo was carrying actually contained a pressurized homemade device he used to spray a liquid that quickly sent the house up in flames, police said.

When the fire was extinguished early Thursday, officers found three charred bodies in the living room area.

"They were met with a scene that was just indescribable," police Chief Kim Raney said. Investigators found three more bodies amid the ashes later in the day.

None of the dead or missing have been identified.

Following the shootings, Pardo quickly got out of the Santa suit and drove off, witnesses told police. He went to his brother's home about 25 miles away in the Sylmar area of Los Angeles. No one was home, so Pardo let himself in, police said.

Police were called to the home early Thursday, and officers found Pardo dead of a single bullet to the head.

so yeah... bah humbug...

I'm ready for this flipping tree to go down.. between the 2 dogs
dragging it around in circles and DD touching it, it's gotta come down
tomorrow... FED UP with it...

overall, Christmas was pretty nice... I was overwelmed at my
present... I love jewelry and I'm acquiring a taste for platinum
now.. oh dear... $$

in the middle of opening presents, my DD said 'I wanna go see grand
pappa' (in St Louis)... that made me really tear up... sucks...
plus, really... just getting a check for Christmas, not so much
fun... and we missed out on stockings, etc... my sister (the oldest
but younger than I am-if that makes sense)... got engaged... so yay...

one good thing... we don't have a 10+ hour drive home tomorrow...

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2 quotes from Christmas morning...

both from DD:

upon opening her new princess wallet:
'hey, there's no money in here'...

upon viewing her new (anatomically correct boy) doll seeing his
"package":
'whooops'

LOL

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Christmas

.... a wrapper for my sausage fingers..

Merry Christmas!

i hope you all have a great Christmas!

nosy nosy nosy....

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HI!

and another thing...

DH's mom asked him if I have gained any weight... too bad he didn't
give the 'good' answer 'a little, not much'. instead he said 'I
dunno, I don't ask that..' SIGH...

me, I would have said none of yer f'ing business!! nosy!! grrr

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oh joys...

just found out my in-laws are visiting
after Joshua is born... I'm SOOOO excited! NOT!

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